my blog.

2008-08-17T21:07:00.007+08:00

I feel really sad for USA's Matthew Emmons right now, but i think its only the smallest fraction of the immense grief he should be feeling. I think i can understand, a little better than others, his sorrow because i myself was involved, for 6 years, in a sport where the smallest mistakes can lead to the biggest regrets. But I think this man has been subjected to the cruelest twists of fates, and honestly, he is a brave man to face these insane setbacks in his life.

(Emmons competes in the 50m 3P event). At Athens 2004, Emmons needed a 8.0 on his last shot to take the gold, an extremely easy feat he could pull off with his eyes closed (not literally speaking). However he fired at the wrong target for 0 points, handing the gold to China and falling to 8th place. Imagine his devastation, certainly it must have been beyond imagination.

At least he got to know Katrina Kurkova from Czech Republic. After his loss, she "plucked up the courage to talk to this world champion" and they got married in 2007. Katrina is as sweet as she looks. Sorry that was an editorial comment. "I think you're the best shooter in the world," she told him. It must have been a heartwarming moment for him, as it would be for any athelte who has these kind words said to him after such a mistake.

Honestly i think they look like a wonderful couple and i think Katrina has a really pretty face and i was happy for her when she took the gold in the 10m Air Rifle Womens event. The photo of her kissing her husband was particularly moving, for me.

So this year Emmons repeats the horror at Athens. After a Silver in the 50m prone event, he was in the finals for the 50m 3P, this time he needed 6.7 to win gold. However, he misfired before he took aim, an incredibly amateurish mistake cost him the gold. Once again, China was handed the gold on a silver.

On the other hand, there was Katrina at Athens as the 'blessing in disguise', and i dont know what form such a blessing will assume this year at beijing. "Things happen for a reason," he said at Athens, before going on to mention that "Katie was that reason". I really hope something good comes out of this. It is unfortunate, but i realise that bad things happen to good people,and i hope Emmons pull through.

"The gods are playing a trick on him" - Kwok Li Hao

2008-07-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

I spent my homework time after dinner watching Amelie, and I loved it! It sent shivers down my spine.. more than once! I honestly think it is a love story. Many things in the movie were left unexplained, but you cannot explain love, so since this is a love movie, all the better. I think i like it better this way.

I am especially drawn to foreign film. and arthouse maybe, This year i saw der undergang, blackbook and amelie. AND i'm looking forward to y tu mama tambien in November after my exams!

2008-05-30T22:47:00.004+08:00

Wishlist

1. 5 As
2. Honeybun
3. Gibson Super Jumbo 200 Acoustic Guitar (EDIT)

2008-04-26T21:00:00.005+08:00

hah im quite pleased with myself! i think my guitar skills improved 1000x times cuz i only took 2hours to learn goodbye to you by michelle branch. then i went to school to get suhui to sing for me (she has a very sweet and beautiful voice, which was quite high so i had to play it a key higher). but there's this part that doesnt seem right ARRGGG!! suhui says i played extra chord before the chorus but i feel like i should be playing a chord more... sian.. its a small thing but it bugs me.i think i'll have to listen to the song a few more times..

i need to increase my repertoire of songs. currently

Guitar:
swing swing by AAR
wonderwall by Oasis
Linger by the cranberries
half of Kiss Me by Sixpence none the richer
half of You were meant for me by Jewel
half of Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
half of Stairway to Heaven by Led Zep (MY FAV SONG!!!! i must master it by end of the year including the SOLO!!)
half of Enter Sandman by Metallica
half of more than words

Bass:
Mr Brightside and When you were young by the Killers
I dont love you, helena, famous last words and im not okay by MCR
Pieces by Sum 41
Swing Swing by AAR

still rmb in january i was always asking darius to play stairway to heaven so i can sing.so noob then

hahaah i can play rythmn lead and bass guitar for swing swing :D:D hmm actually not bad for learning to for less than half a year. self taught somemore ! so talented. the student has surpassed the master eh changj.

2008-04-05T12:13:00.034+08:00

Title” The Day I Recalled the Past 6 Years of My Life.

Today I want to talk about shooting because past events recent events on the club blog have set me thinking about the past, and in doing so, about my story. So here is my story. Shooting has been a major part of my life, something that has happened to me and changed me in many, many ways.

I have been planning to write this for quite some time – perhaps as a closure for something I have sweated, bled, cried and laugh over, or perhaps as an end-of- journey sort of reflection. We all make several great journeys in our lifetime, and it is with undeniable doubt that this, is one such great journey I had undertook. Whatever the case, I hadn’t planned to write it so early. I thought I would write it at the end of 2008, perhaps after my A levels or after I’ve stepped down as captain or after I’ve stopped shooting or after I’ve found that I no longer love shooting anymore. Maybe the reason why this is not written until my final year of school is because I want to keep thinking that the last 2 reasons would not give me sufficient reason at all.

Secondary One

Before I begin I want to talk about something still haunts me till this day. It is the ghost of the past, and this ghost is the ghost of being inadequate. We live in a meritocratic society, but meritocracy is only as good as the things it can measure, count or rank. Everyday we are subjected to a ranking system that is the phantom of meritocracy - where almost everything is assigned a number. So when I went for the air rifle selections trails in secondary one I too was given a number. Number 50. Jeremy Ang Boon Sheng, the captain told me so, after telling me that only numbers 1 to 10 would be taken into the club. But in the end I found myself as a member the club, something which till this day I am still grateful and thankful for.

The day I was told the good news

I met Jeremy outside the toilets near the book shop when I was walking back to class. Jeremy told me I was ‘in’, and then he told me to work hard. I told myself never to let Jeremy down, because we are taught to repay kindness with double the kindness we have been given. I felt that training the hardest I could and loving the club and the sport with all the love my heart could muster would be a good way of repaying Jeremy’s faith in me. So that was what I did.

Secondary 1 was a particularly trying year for me. Although it was never disclosed that I was not the crème of the crop, it showed and smiled like a rebel’s whore. My shots landed outside the card, I could not do whatever the coach wanted and I needed seniors to cock the gun for me. Everyone laughed at me, but the reason why I did not give up was my silent promise to Jeremy. I think he never knew, but he was the most inspirational senior to me. Although he was not a national shooter or an extraordinary shooter for that matter, he was a person with extraordinary character who knew how to inspire others, and that was all that mattered to me.

Secondary Two

Then came Secondary 2. It was crunch time and the school had to select the C Div – or the 4 best shooters for subsidy of shooting equipment. I wasn’t part of the 4 (who were Bo Xuan, Kelvin, Jiang Hao and Jie Hao) and I wasn’t going to get the subsidy. Finally with Coach Zhang’s recommendation an exception was made to support 5 shooters for equipment grants. I told myself never to let the school down, and most importantly, never to let those who believed in me down, because it took a lot of believe. And like kindness, faith, was to be repaid in double. That year I participated in my first Inter-School Nationals and won a silver medal for the school. The team comprised of Bo Xuan, Kelvin and myself. Kelvin shot 569, I shot 568 (my personal best) and Bo Xuan shot 560. So effectively I was no.2 in our team of 5, which well, used to be a team of 4. But Jiang Hao and Jie Hao did not shoot Interschools. Later that year Jiang Hao and Jie Hao faded away and their jackets never found service to their owners again. There are people with passion and then there are people who think of CCA points. Sometimes scores or grouping cannot help us distinguish the two.

The day I first cried over shooting

It was Singapore Opens 2004, and I didn’t have time to finish my last two shots. I cried for 10 minutes and my teachers, coach and even the jury had to comfort me. Mr Eddie Lim, the jury, pressed a lunch coupon into my hands and told me to go for lunch. I went to the toilet to dry my tears, and everyone I met told me ‘it was okay’. But I didn’t think it was okay and I didn’t think I was just a competition. Shooting, and that competition, as with any other competition, was important to me – and that was why I cried. Crying makes one look like a loser. It makes men look like boys, and the brave look weak. That day, I was a loser, a boy and a weak person. But we are weak because of what we love, and what we feel strongly for. My teammates teased me about it, even months after the incident. As much as it hurt, it reminded me of my love and passion for shooting, and which was precisely why I cried.

Secondary Three

50m Smallbore

2005 was the year I shot 50m Prone as part of the National Youth Team program. I was really lost at the start, and I had no one to turn to to help me see the big picture of training for an event that leaves my arm numb for 30 minutes after shooting. I thought of asking my seniors, but it felt to me that they were just shooters training with me in the same venue, much like the person in the cubicle next to yours in a toilet - you could ask him for more toilet paper, but you know you would rather make do with what you had. So I didn’t ask them for anything. Anyway, prone was something new but unfortunately it did not last, as all of us in the NYT found ourselves caught in a political crossfire that saw police officers interrogating us and our respective school principals writing letters to protect us.

The day I was left on the shelf

2005 was the year I set my personal best of 585, crossing the 580 barrier that neither Kelvin or Bo Xuan had done. I was the first among them to hit 580. It was a good year for me and training was good. But I was left on the shelf during Nationals Inter School 2005, and I was made the reserve with the team being comprised of Ronald Ang, Bo Xuan and Kelvin. I was told that Ronald had more competition experience. His grouping on the training before nationals was better than mine. As such, he would be the better choice against the then stronger Raffles team. I cried when Ms Teo broke the news to me, and it took me twenty minutes to stop. Unlike in 2005, I didn’t cry because of something I lost or failed to do. I didn’t cry because I was defeated. I cried because it shattered my belief and guiding principle that I had embraced every since Jeremy took me into the club by his faith and confidence in me. That day I learnt that passion, hard work and determination didn’t stand the test of a 5 shot grouping in the card. The lesson was presented to me in the hardest and harshest of ways. Perhaps I have never learnt this lesson, because I would never recover from the blow. Perhaps I have never learnt this lesson because I still believe in passion and determination and the journey instead of the destination. Since then Ronald has gone to RJC and stopped shooting competitively. (At this point in time I must say that I had never resented the school’s decision.)

Secondary Four

Ghosts are people or spirits who have faded away. I guess after that I, and my team became ghosts of the club. Nationals 2006 we didn’t even come in 4^th. All 3 of us underperformed during the West Zone competition. All 3 of us were devastated, knowing that the strong club tradition of at least a Nationals Finals was smashed in our hands. But when Mr Low took us up to the bowling alley for a post match talk, I was the only one who cried. This time it took 30 minutes for me to stop.

College One

2007 was just another year that came and went by. We had a drastic change within the club. A new coach came and training was conducted in the school’s rifle range. We took time to get accustomed to the new coach, to a new range, but I could not get accustomed to training under a coach who sought to distinguish his own shooters from shooters tainted by the previous coach. It is always those who are in between that suffer, those who are caught with neither their pants up nor down. As captain I have tried to change that, but sometimes conviction is the strongest thing in the world. We were the transition batch, and there was nothing we could do about it. We were the transition batch, and we were just supposed to stick around, do what we could until the real heroes showed up.So, like wraiths and spectral figures, we went through competition after competition, shoot after shoot, shot by shot. For me, pulling the trigger was extremely different from pulling the trigger when I was in secondary one. Although when I was in secondary one pulling the trigger meant a shot outside the black, I was a much happier person.

Captaincy

In 2007 everyone in the club ran for captain and but I got the post. It was interview/selections with the teachers and seniors, and not a whole-club-vote-popularity contest. I was happy that I got the post, and I received an SMS from Jun Hong congratulating me and telling me not to let him down. From the moment I submitted my application to be Captain I had not planned to let anyone down, not my team, my teachers, my club or my school. But for the following 2 weeks I woke up every morning with a twist in my stomach that told me I had a heavy responsibility.It was like getting a new haircut from the latest fashion house in town - it makes one wake up feeling happy and nervous and excited at the same time. Eventually the morning sickness symptoms went away (like how we get used to a new look), but definitely not my sense of duty and responsibility.

Being Captain, I feel, is like being a senior senior. And sometimes, being a good senior is one of the most important things a person can do for his club.

Club Dynamics

Talking about seniors

Every club has them and every club needs them. I think seniors are the most important asset of any club, and I am sad to say that our shooting club did not have enough of this special ingredient.

Seniors pass through juniors like sand in an hour glass. They leave their mark on juniors like paint handprints on paper. All seniors, leave their mark on their juniors. I remember my seniors. Yi Chao and Jiang Shui, who taught me gangster chants and said I looked like a pokemon. Choon Kai and of course Jeremy. I remember the 2 Melvins, Jun Hong, Li Zhan, Yida, Jiayi, Guang He, Nick, Yi Jie, Ronald, Wei Ren and many others. I remember them all, because I looked up to them. I idolized my seniors. But there were two kinds of seniors I idolized – one that had great achievements, and one that had great character. The latter never failed to inspire me in my darkest moments, but the former has never failed leave me feeling that they could be more.

Seniors with Great Character

I want to talk about seniors with great character first, because the limelight is always on those who achieve, win at international competitions or are recipients of sports awards. I want to talk about seniors with great character because sometimes, to quote Guang He, being successful is not about winning and looking at your juniors from the top, but helping your juniors get to the top to be with you.

Jeremy was one such senior with great character that I respected. Knowing that I was not as good my peers in secondary 1, he never failed to offer me words of encouragement and support. He believed in me (which was why he took me into the club), and he made sure I knew it. I did, and it would be what that spurred me on to train as hard as I could. He stood up for me many times, including, I believe, against the teacher in charge to let me in. Unfortunately I did not have the chance to stand up for him too. But then again, he was a senior and I, a junior, and perhaps this is the way of things (like the wax and wane of the moon) – that seniors are there to help their juniors and turn them into seniors who would do the same for their juniors. Perhaps this is why seniors are the most important assets of any club.

Seniors with Great Achievements

I am very lucky to have many seniors with great achievements under them (the other type of seniors that I respected). They were called the ‘Golden Batch’. They did 3 main things in their time - setting records, smashing records, or breaking their own records - they at the front of the battle, with their shiny armor and polished swords all ready to charge and slaughter the opposition. They certainly did boost awareness and bring attention to our club. There were posters around the school. However, things were not quite the same. I remember being asked to run errands and sweep up pellets from an overturned pellet box. I remember being asked to do odd jobs and being disparaged afterwards. I remember being made fun of. I remember being treated as what I really was – a junior. But I remember putting up with it only out of respect for their shooting achievements and not their character. I didn’t learn much from them – at best, I only learnt how to mimic their shooting stance. That wasn’t really helpful, and I am sure those who have held a rifle in their hands before would agree with me.

Jeremy was with me for only half a year before I stopped seeing him altogether as he had to study for his O Levels. But I learnt more in 6 months than I did in the rest of the 5 years in the club. I was a junior and he a senior – the thing that separated him from the other type of seniors was that he didn’t treat me like a junior – he treated me like a member of the team.

I am a Senior

I am determined to be a good senior, because I was once a junior, and seniors affect juniors in more ways than they think. Just last week a Secondary 1 boy called Nicholas was asking who was a “very pro shooter” in the club. He went from a person to another, from Secondary 2 shooters to College 2 shooters. Finally he came to me. He recognized me, as I was the one who helped cock his gun at the trials. I would never forget what happened next.

He asked me, “you are a very pro shooter right? Can you teach me how to be as pro as you?” At the point in time I was stunned and did not know what to say, not so much of what he said but more of contemplating what I could say. It was in front of everyone, and I could have made a joke out of it (at his expense) and have a good laugh. Then we all could go home feeling happy and light hearted. But in him, I saw a bit of myself – the secondary one shooter who idolized his seniors. In less than a moment, I knew what I had to do or more importantly, what kind of senior I wanted to be. So I told him to train hard, and listen to his coach. I wasn’t a very pro shooter, but immediately after I spoke those words to him, I felt like a better shooter than I ever had in a long time. I wasn't a very pro shooter, but then again, it didn't matter to me, and it didn't matter with being the senior I was trying to be.

Team Spirit

I am determined to be a good senior because I know how important team spirit is – not team spirit within a team of 3, but team spirit within a club of 50. That is why I refuse to put anyone down, my junior Eng Way included even when the worst of things happen. I stood up for him when he was down, because I believe that team spirit means standing up for a teammate. I believe that team spirit is crucial, and I believe that by preventing it from falling apart by doing what I can do as a senior, I am a good senior.

Coach always reminds us (A Boys) that we cannot hold a candle to his precious B Boys. Every time he reminds us of this, I am reminded that while we cannot be seniors our juniors respect for our achievements, we can very well be seniors our juniors respect for our character and for the things we do, and I think that is most important because as each year passes, an old team leaves and a new team steps up to fill its place. What is constant and what will remain and persevere and will pass on from generation to generation, from seniors to juniors, is the love for the sport and the love for the club, and that is what that is most important, because with that, we can win the titles we desire, but without that, we are mere vessels that are left empty once the ‘Golden Batch’ graduates.

Learning

I have learnt many more lessons in the rifle range than I have in the classroom. They are lessons that are precious to me - the only regret is that I paid dearly for them. But they are lessons and experience that would take me through life, and I am the person I am today because of them. I am grateful for the opportunity, but even more grateful to be part of the CCA called Shooting. I can never repay what the school has given to me – I can only hope that what I have done is enough.

Finally, it is not the day that you succeed that matters, but the day that you learn how to that counts.

I hope that by sharing what I have gone through with you all you will learn from my experiences and take the club to greater heights. I hope there will not be a repeat of conflicts like the previous one over the club blog. Shooting is a personal sport, but team spirit counts.

Bo Xian

2008-03-25T22:47:00.006+08:00

hahaha blocks over so happy now as happy as a bird! i studied for it! ... although not very conscientiously ahah whatever!

guitars i've been drooling over lately.

LES PAUL is a beauty!!!
hehe mym]moon. although i've retired from warcraft, he is still my hero! crazy guy won more than USD 130 000 in 2007 from gaming alone, excluding his USD 9000 salary! HOT STUFF MAN . all i want is a fraction of his skill. i think koreans are very funny people! we went to this korean foodplace at cine and the waitress was a middle aged korean woman. so i asked her if she knew jang jae ho (the guy above) and she got so excited HAHAHA. see u can get famous from playing warcraft TOO BAD SINGAPORE SO SIAN.

this weekends going to explode. fri got party. sat got 2 party!!! HAHA TICKLE IS BEST from $16 - $0 . so foc now everyone can come.

www.tickle-me-hc.blogspot.com

so technically i won the $50 bet that changj cant get 100 people to come. HWACHONG what you expect. go ac sell still maybe possible. speaking of ac. today hwachong vs acsi waterpolo and we won! ian was crazy, playing the whole game without being subbed out . he was man possesed! score 7 goals imba shit man they had to use 3 defenders to gang him. and he still can score
IMBA!1!!


							oh really


				me:			needa borrow ur music sheet haha..
							oh ok
				shane:			u know today damn funny
							there was this fat boy at the class bench beside us playing guitar
							then i thought that guitar wasnt his, so i walked up to him and said Eh is this your guitar? so that he would oops sorry and pass it to me
							so i did, and he said Yar. and gave me that pissed wtf look
							lol then after that he KEPT eyeing me
							huh
							why he say sorry
							so u did what??!?!
							if it isnt his he would think im taking back my guitar
							but it was his haha
							so i just walked up to him and said Is this your guitar
							oh haha
							loser class bench?
							yes
							haha
							i think he knew
							in 10 mins time i was gonna kope his guitar anyway
							because j1s have CT session
							HAHA
							i looked back because i wanted to wait for him to leave and kope
							AND i SAW him staring at me
							that fat boy
							nvm monday go beat him up
							is he cool?
							come on
							hes fat
							haha best is
							afterwards i got kope la, then when i was done with it i returned it, and cos CT period ending soon
							then actually some of their classmates came back
							but chang j felt like playing and he went to take
							when he took it the girl junyu always niao yize about, she stared at chang j
							then chang j just said - im the fat boys friend.
							haha then he just took it
							hahahaah wtf the girl so righteous meh
							i dunno i think she retarded
							she looks damn retarded
							honestly
							where got ppl borrow things dont say the persons name just say I am fat boys friend
							and sorry my apostrophe button is spoilt
							yeah hahah
							so did fat boy comeback in the end
							dunno didnt see already
							hahaha

]
xDDD
ok im gonna watch jackass 2.5 HAHa.

2008-03-04T21:24:00.010+08:00

okay v day. got nice presents from gloria and tianyu. still quite confused by the musical thingy gloria bought me. been very fun writing to them both.

lihao, gloria (my mortal/lihao's angel), tianyu (my angel) and hanchih (lihao's mortal)

seriously la she gave him a keychain for vday. if i were him i would be pissed also it looks like a free gift hahaha.

HAHA so after this letter gloria went back at 7, for which i feel like a jerk because i went home to sleep after school. later i explained that the line was a "written in logical poetic sense, flowing inevitably from the tip of my pen like a poem caressing my skin" HAHA. good thing she does not hold it against me. well at least i made it a point to write a poem to her in every letter . but sometimes i wonder if my efforts really do pay off.. well.. because..

some other random pics.

i didnt get my ear pierced, its just a sticker.

changj's work of art.

anyway here's a funny conversation.

me: eh i think N is really really cute.
jiaying: i think she has a bf - X
me: omg serious? is he hot?
jiaying: : no
me: is he buff?
jiaying: : no
me: is he tall?
jiaying: yea. aiyah he's the one from 4C last time!
liahao: X FROM 4C? WTF I THOUGHT HE WAS A NICE GUY LA.

shane: aiyah boxian u go fight with him u sure win one.
me:fight as in what? eh i only know how to punch solar plexus.
lihao:dao just zham.

2008-02-15T23:37:00.007+08:00

valentine's day i was nervous & forgot what i wanted to say. true story. but luckily it went well. and im lucky to have such encouragement from friends hahaha.

boxian62@hotmail.com says:
ddont think so..
boxian62@hotmail.com says:
but it went quite funnily
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
ahh hope u get closer to her.
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
haha
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
tell meee
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
haha im very excited.
boxian62@hotmail.com says:
over/
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
ok la nvm
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
dont need to tell me the details.
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
i bet she'd be sooo overjoyed if she knew u like her
choochang_e@hotmail.com says:
dont worry!

i'll write about what comes to mind. GP. we boycott. no 2 words come together like pon and gp. pics show the class going for toilet for 15mins and camwhoring outside the toilets.

gp class outing.

this was passed around during math lecture as a snack.

lihao with his hongkong gangster haircut. we love it.

more to come.

2008-02-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

pics.

STJ.

changj's birthday!haha he thought we forgot but we didnt! i did all the saigang, meeting his sisters and arranging for crys to come.but we'll the smile on his face was really worth it, im glad u had a great birthday changj! happy 18th!

we got him loads of presents but the one he liked the most has got to be the vibrator which lihao and i helped shane and jy buy for him. LOL. shall upload pics of his party next time.

card that we made for him! ( i did the saigang)

2008-01-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

mood: fucking pissed off

i hate it when retards get in my way ok so i went to look for one today i dont blame myself she had it coming.

out.

2008-01-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

xmas was good changj's mom invited me and rong over for a wonderful dinner.his family was really funny and his relatives were warm and well funny too haha! after that we slacked around and played NFS on his com with his cousin. whose favourite color is red and blue. and who likes to bully me :( he's only 8 years old FTW OMG. his sisters were funny cuz they kept calling me 'part of the family' lol

after that we played blackjack. i was lucky, started with $2.50 won about $15. after that i played poker with his mom and won another $17. its quite a lot cuz we didnt bet high, for both poker and bj. i went to sleep in my clothes (wasnt planning to stay over).

woke up and had oreos for breakfast, was playing CS with changj then his mom asked me play poker with her ahha so i went then his sisters (D and E) joined us. i was lucky again, winning about $10 then d complained so i changed seats with her and started my losing streak with losing $10 in a game of bluff with j's mom ( Ace pair vs 3,8 pair). after that i had to go home cuz visiting some relatives haha.

pics

the xmas card he made me.

his room.
LOL OMG WHEN THEY WERE ALL SEC2 HAHAAHAHAHAHA. JON JEREMY JOSHUA BRYAN DARIUS CLEAVANCE CCJ

pop the champaign and gambling.
drunk.

the next day.

was looking around his file found his sketchbook and relived some memories. :D
this is why we both suck at math.

our plans to make a graphic novel NOIR STYLE never came true.

the xmas card i made them.

:D

xmas day i went out with my family for dinner at the place where the serve the best stingray ever (Zz i know u're drooling) but we didnt get to eat that day cuz it was somehow not on the menu LOL.
.

OK NOW MY HAIR'S SO SHORT YOU'LL LAUGH WHEN YOU SEE ME.

after xmas i had air rifle chalet but ididnt stay over. school's started now saw so many cathigh posers with dyed hair.

2007-12-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

merry xmas! shall blog about xmas another day so in this short post i shall squeeze everything that happened in the past 2 weeks.df

college senior farewell for shooting! yeah we had it pretty early cuz yida had to go for extra NS soon haha. here's the pics. fish and co. the significant seniors all managed to turn up, and overall no uninvited guests so that's great for a thing like a senior farewell. ((:

and there's this outing with ZZ yg and jansen. which was pretty random, i was supposed to treat ZZ to a movie but somehow yg and jansen came along too. watched beowulf, cant rmb much only that it was CGI animated so stop talking about angelina jolie already its CGI! zomg.

sec4/ortus chalet!damn fun, only that a bit ex but i heard they used Aeki's membership to book the chalet but never invite him? damn bad. i didnt stay the night, so i left with yj and fk and eujin but i heard after we left ernest came ): well. the chalet was fun, played soccer pool arcade (LOL THAT SCAM SLOT MACHINE WHERE WE LOST LIKE 10 bUCKS) and poker where i won like 5 bucks.

the scam slot machine strangling yj as usual.

trip to yongjie's house. yeah to celebrate hari rayah for yongjie the malay. the usual people, and the usual dose of religious insults. the usual playstation matches (LOL I BEAT ALL OF THEM AT WWE YONGJIE YOU NOOB), the usual threats to define each other on urban dictionary, the usual goofing and niaoing, and the usual jokes about his sis. something like the eat chicken shoot lizard incident, but only this time his mom didnt make chicken and we didn't have a lizard to shoot.

some random pics from some outings.

then its training training, pick up serviced rifles, lunching with different people, doing holiday homework, and trying to have fun at the same time. this is how sad it is.

2007-12-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

today i was at HIGH Cafe for a warcraft tournament, which is actually part of the Rampage Asia tournament by Intel and WCG, only that this is the Singapore leg. Intel has been doing a lot lately to publicize their processors, from supporting WCG, Rampage Asia as well as HIGH Cafe and sponsoring clans like WE and 4Kings. Anyway, the tournament was open to the top 16 players in Singapore, which naturally included gosus... here's the website for more details : http://intel.wcgzone.com/

speaking of rampage asia ... well the first thing is that the platform is battle.net, which means lag like mad (HELLO 200+ ping!) Second, all the korean professional players are in rampage asia, including MYM]Lucifer, NoA.Shy etc - but that's not the juicy part - the thing is that the pros all use different and totally unrelated alias when playing on battle.net, so you wont know what hit you when you got assraped horribly by some guy online. spare me cuz my weak heart cant take alll that excitement.bleagh.

anyway a cruel twist of fate had me up against girlyluck (Singapore no.2 ZOMG!) today. it was single elimination so it meant that only one of us would advance to the next stage. he won the coin toss, so he got to pick the first map : echo ilse. i was very nervous and didnt control well... .. i tried an all out rush at tier 2 with archers + talons + demonhunter + naga but it failed horribly cuz i had to teleport out before my ancients of wars came up. when i was back he had bears, not master yet, but it was bears nonetheless - i didnt manage to hurt him, delay his lores or his tech. i had lost my advantage of a rush so i typed GG and chose Terenas Stand for the 2nd game, which i HAD to win to have a chance to advance.

I wasnt nervous this time round, everything went according to plan .. i used my lastest strategy with 1 archer and demon hunter and a tech for quick bears with bear form, but he's the rub : i wanted to get a goblin shredder from the golbin lab but he clicked it first! so he got it and tried to rush me - the rush failed badly for him cuz despite having 6x more archers than i did i managed to force him to teleport out. but because he took the shredder i couldnt get the lumber i desperately needed - so i couldnt get my 2nd ancient of lore up, i couldnt tech and when we fought again he had more bears and he won.

:(

well in the end galvin won the tournament (he was a favourite) and girlyluck didnt make it to top 4.

we went for lunch at around noon then we went back and watched the rest of the tournament, played some games (CS warcraft battlefield), joke around, slack, distrub each other and got to know lots of other people. then we went for prize giving and me and 3 other guys shared a cab home cuz we were all heading in the same direction.

and i realised that i forgot to sign up for KODE5 southeast asia tournament.. haha im gonna get vello to pull some strings and put me in haha hopefully. hmm by the way HIGH cafe's a pretty nice play to chill out cuz there's a bar and something like a club. HIGH cafe is an entire shophouse to itself and the 2nd floor is something like a LAN area with a bar and football screening and lounges and pool table . the theme and layout is kinda like a club. well they do serve alchoholic drinks. and lan is pretty cheap for the good graphics and hardware ! i think the management is rapture gaming and intel cuz there were intel labels all over (including the chairs and monitors lol).

oh yes and who is "you" on my tagboard???

2007-12-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

last friday was the last time i trained with a working rifle as my rifle is officially malfunctioning like crazy atm cuz it makes this weird farting sound after i squeeze the trigger. so after training last friday i met the rugby guys at the high school field and learned that they were gonna play a friendly against the girls touch rug team. so i decided to watch and show my support for my friends (despite the fact that i was starving and was about to go for lunch!!)

well but they lost haha. and the last time i remembered them playing against the girls they lost too lol

i was supposed to go for lunch with them but i met xianyun and deicded to eat with her cuz
1)i was starving
2) i needed to wait for the guys to shower , meaning i needed to wait 1000000 hours

we went to madjack for lunch where we had a nice chat. the food was fine but the service sucked. seriously. and the guy shortchanged me ZOMG.i am never going back there again.

hmm.

i read the 5 people you meet in heaven today at borders. it was a really good book, actually mitch albom's a good author i enjoyed tuesdays with morrie as well. but the 5 people you meet in heaven made me stop and think... about life and death, and love.i thought the book was really full of wisdom and was pleasantly surprised to find that the author thought the same as i did about death .. that you'd understand everything when you die.

im so lost in my thoughts now i cant type (think) straight.

2007-11-19T18:38:00.000+08:00

due to popular demand (LOLOL, stares at ZZ) i shall upload the pics from my cruise. we went on the superstar gemini. everything was ok, the 7 day trip was really fun and enjoyable cuz my family is just so funny. i feel so lucky to have such cool parents and brother ^^

the trip was to thailand, but we stopped a few times along the way, KL, Langkawi etc. but the best deal was thailand, phuket and phatong beach was just such a laid back and great place! if i dont go backpacking around europe with Ian after A levels i'll wanna go phuket again. beautiful beach, beautiful people, great food, and lots of night entertainment. i think it'll just be wonderful to go and spend a week there, plus, accomodation is damn cheap.

yeah bought lots of stuff. especially in thailand! i think everything isnt genuine over there but heck i cant tell! and then they'll be rows and rows of shops selling the same products, so if you aren't happy with the price just go and they'll call you back. here's an example.

me: how much
stall owner: 700 baht best price
me: no ( walks away)
stall owner: okok 200 baht

MADNESS. soon we got the hang of it and we got all our stuff and really good deals. thailand is the best.

i'll let the pics do the talking. there's still more, but its on the other camera i think..

http://boxian.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album01

2007-11-10T23:37:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE BUY ME TICKETS TO MCR CONCERT IN SINGAPORE. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER IF YOU DO.

http://www.sistic.com.sg/cms/events/index.html?content=1289

2007-10-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

yay im really happy today cuz PW is finally over! all i wanna say is how thankful to have such a great, fun, funny and efficient group to work with - ian macolm tannting eugenia me. H1 199. :D there's still one thing that i dont understand until now - how we manage to get everything done with when always end up slacking at tannting's house ahhaa.

we had OP today, which was something that i wasn't really worried about because i felt okay with it during the rehersals. im really glad and flattered that Mr Low actually used my group's PPT and video as a "positive example" to other groups that he wasnt supervising - in other words, he must have passed it to his college as a positive example. and im really honored that mr low thinks so highly of my q and a

kensheehimurabattousai@hotmail.com:
u not worried la right
got "no comments" from yingjie

boxian62@hotmail.com
ya not wworried
but i'll work on my op still
just to polish it up a bit

kensheehimurabattousai@hotmail.com
i quite worried about my time
and q and a
mr low keep using u as an example for q and a
kensheehimurabattousai@hotmail.com
haha u smoking king

boxian62@hotmail.com
really ah
when

kensheehimurabattousai@hotmail.com
yes
during our reh
when he willc omment on us
and talk to us about q and a
he will talk about u

boxian62@hotmail.com
wah really ah
thats such an honor!
what did he say

kensheehimurabattousai@hotmail.com
he'll go like
"that boxian ah..."
i dont know how he does it but he pulls it off
he can go off-tangent but then still seem to be making sense at the end of it

boxian62@hotmail.com
wah
so honored haahahaha

:D . hmmm today's OP. it went well, and WOW i actually practised for it 3x yesterday at home! before and aftetr dinner and before i went to bed. the more i practised, i realsied, the more nervous and even uncertain i got so i decided to stop and 3 and not reherse today. so my presentation went ok. i hope the assessors knew i was delibrately moving around and not pacing arghhh!!! okay then came Q and A. when i went up i got a shock - everyone was so attentive when just a minute before a few of them were sleeping ! ahah. but i thought i did okay for the Q and A, cuz i was kinda like going in circles and going off tangent. but the assesors and the class clapped after that so i guess it was good! haha im so glad that the assesors actually clapped! :D

so after that i went to watch FANGKAI reherse a bit . then i went to play bball with shane and yuanguang then junyu came and we all went to shanes house to bathe (junyu and shane) i didnt bring towel or underwear LOL so i ended up playing his guitar while waiting. then we went to PS for class dinner and then pool where i got owned . :(

its raining outside now i should really go to sleep and maybe i'll even dream in color this time!

2007-10-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

school's ending soon , i cant believe how fast this year flew by. i'm feeling really emo right now, and i just wanna say how incredibly glad am i to have gotten to know my best buds changj and delphine and lihao (well maybe i was already close to changj in high sch, but not a best friend kinda thing). the 2 of them really made school life fun and interesting, and they are friends that i can talk to about anything. in fact everything about each other, we all know. yeah yeah all the dirty secrets and fetishes HAHAA i cant believe we told each other so much!last night i went out for a movie with shane junyu mianrong and changj (resident evil ; incredibly stupid but entertaining, like shoot em up but minus the itallian sexpot) and after that changj and i were just hanging around town . he tried to call some guys out but no one wanted cuz it was so late . so we just hung around and talked, and we had a really nice talk about lots of stuff, and it made me really glad to have him as a close friend. :) and delphine havent had a nice talk with u in ages! hmm we havent been seeing each other much in school nowadays cuz of PW and cuz changj pons school EVERYDAY. here's some pictutes of them . :D

MAF! delphine's birthday, changj and i and lihao got her a webcam and she was really happy about it ahhaa! wanted to hug us but we didnt allow HAHA.

EXTRACT: "i was soooo pleasantly surprised during MAF when changj and boxian told me that had a gift for me. knowing this 2 boys i thought sigh maybe they mightn't be bothered BUTTT when box was like we didn't get anything for you.. i kind of drooped buuuut then he said aiya kidding lah, we got something from a sex shop for you!!its a dildo.. then he said. no its lingerie. open in a corner you wouldn't want people to see!!! HAHAAHAHAAA i was so apprehensive about opening it up zzzzzzz but YAYY turns out it was a webcam which i was really hoping i'd get!!!!!!! so i was really brimming with affection for the both of them but no hugs haahahahaha they are silly but sweet (sometimes) boys who make life in s79 a one of a kind experience for me (: and then we took a picture and in there both boxian and changj are all smiling with their eyes and it's a really pretty picture which will forever represent very treasured memories of ccj box lihao and i BUT i look bad in it sigh.."

I'VE BEEN WANTING TO SAY THIS BUT I HAVET: DELPHINE U'RE WELCOME WE'RE GLAD U HAD A GREAT BIRTHDAY! :D

just glad to have friends like the 3 of them :D

2007-10-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

okay i had a really horrid day today, so im going to be an ass and bitch about it hurhur.

i woke up late this morning and had to rush out of the house to school for bio mass tutorial, which is almost the same as mass-copying-answers-cum-slack session in the auditorium. i cant skip this, cuz i already gave yesterday's bio review a miss to go for CCA meeting.but i know ms teo wont send me for CS, because SHE'S THE NICEST CT IN THE WORLD yay hahaa.

after the 45 minute bio tutorial ian and i went to salt centre to gym. only to find that the gym was closed. then i got super mad. i don't know why, it just kinda got to me to look at the guy's heck care face telling us the gym was closed. well but ian was angrier i think, he almost shouted at the guy. : o

so no gym today - leaving me with nothing to do until 3pm (sakae sushi lunch) . so i called junyu, he told me he was going bowling. i called shane - he was going queensway to eat, then to jansen's house to play board games. i called delphine - she had nothing on but i didnt have any ideas too so we left it at that. changj was prob still sleeping at home.

i got to the nanyang busstop and contemplated between going home and joining shane. i didnt realise it, but today was a FRIDAY. unlucky day. first i should elaborate why friday is my unlucky day. (actually unlucky for changj and delphine too)

bad things happen on friday. petty things too actually like looking unglam having bad hair etc etc,. the more serious ones are as follows. on a friday, changj and i were caught "borrowing" guitars from some random guy. ( ok borrowing without permission.) on another friday, changj got into a fight with a PRC which was damn funny LOL. once , changj and lihao and i were caught skipping assembly by PPC driving past. OMG THIS IS THE BEST WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF PPC DRIVING PAST US AND LOOKING OUT OF HIS CAR WINDOW AND SEEING US SKIPPING ASSEMBLY?

cant give other examples of the curse of friday, but there are much more.

back to today. i didnt realise it was a friday, so i boarded my bus home (i decided not to go out )which was a big mistake. on hindsight, i should have just sat at the busstop without moving a muscle or even blinking until night falls and my parents come to pick me up. harhar. maybe i should have done that, cuz i lost my wallet on the bus. then it dawned upon me that it was a friday . sick realisation. i went on a long chase for my wallet - finally got it back minus the cash. very angry already.

on my way home i realised that im an easily irritable person. and since this post is for me to bitch about things that annoy me, here goes.

List of Things that Annoy Me
1) Crowded buses
2) Smelly buses
3) Stuffy buses
4) waiting in line
5) people who walk slowly in front of me
6) narrow walkways, because of (5)
7) people who cut MY queuE
8)people who talk loudly on the bus
9)people with annoying voices
10) people who cough/sneeze/ without covering their mouth
11) people who spit in public
12) people who litter.

speaking of 7), there was a auntie who cut my queue at a store today. without realising it i gave her one of my scowls (as delphine calls ) and she apologised to me. which made me feel bad cuz i didnt mean to scowl or whatever-you-call-it at her. but yeah, im proud of the look of contempt that i can really give to people who annoy me HAHA.

okay im feeling better now . so maybe bitching does help. hahaa. back to playing the guitar i hope the neighbours dont complain.

2007-10-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

promos are finally over , results not out yet but im keeping my fingers crossed. school's been really fun and life, really busy, even after promos. training's resuming soon, PW needs to be done, open house's coming up, need to play a lot etc. feeling kinda lazy now, shall let the pictures do the talking

ps: podcasting sabbatical showed me how guailan shane can be.

cant find the rest of the photos that i want to upload.

i watched shoot em up. highly recommended for 2 reasons

1) monica bellucci is damn hot

2) its pure fun (although the plot is brainless)

i love life after promos.

2007-08-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

i know this is horribly late, but here it is anyway. i've been wanting to post this since i read harry potter 3 days after it came out. (fine stone me i actually did not get the book on its first day)

here's a book review, just my opinions.

'I must really say, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows fall short of expectations of Rowling’s master storytelling fame, and certainly does not beget the high praise of having crafted a book with dickens-like ingenuinity.

My expectations of the deathly hallows were extremely high, but not exceedingly or unreasonably so. Having stuck through and thoroughly enjoyed the first 6 books of the series (look, the deathly hallow’s decicated to me!), I had braced myself for nothing less than a brilliant and masterful ending that would dwarf or at least, be worthy of even the combined magics of the first 6 books (pardon the pun). However the deathly hallows seemed too rehearsed and staged to me, although this did not at all make it less of one of the most exciting and entertaining books I’ve ever read.

The deathly hallows appeared to be a staged plot element that would, seem acceptable if employed by other authors but instead, rather appear disappointing when applied by whom I’ve regarded to be a masterful storyteller - Rowling. Perhaps, if the deathly hallows had been introduced earlier in the series, would this plot element then fall perfectly into place as the crux lending itself to Voldemort’s ultimate undoing. As it was mentioned that the story of the Deathly Hallows was a popular and almost household fable, such a legend should have been mentioned from books 1 to 6, by wizards who were of pure or half blood parentage and thus would know the story, if not from the main characters themselves. Whether or not Rowling had intended for the deathly hallows to be mentioned only in book 7, it gives the impression of a rather forced plot element thrown into the story to tie up loose ends which is, in my opinion, a great pity.

In addition, the ending to Deathly Hallows seemed almost too fairytale-like; Harry returning from an out-of-body experience after being supposedly killed by Lord Voldemort, and then subsequently moving on to defeat him and to live happily ever after. Even the last sentence of the book speaks of a fairytale-like ending of ‘happily ever after’ in perhaps, Rowling’s own literary brew: ‘All was well.’ Rowling definitely has to take into consideration the younger readers of her book, and as much as I felt the ending to be too light-hearted, I fully support the ending she has chosen for the abovementioned reason. Besides, a Harry Potter theme park would hardly be more successful if Harry Potter himself were to be dead at the end of Book 7. Rowling would be effectively killing off the highly profitable Harry Potter franchise.

I also have much doubts surrounding Ron and the Outputter left to him by Dumbledore. How was it possible that it allowed him to know the location of Harry and Hermione, get there in time to demonstrate great courage and valor by saving Harry and proceed to obtain the Sword of Gryffindor. Coming to the Sword of Gryffindor, it was mentioned that it had to taken as the user demonstrates courage and valour. How did Snape know that either of the trio in the forrest would demonstrate courage and gallantry before taking the Sword? If Harry had removed the locket from his neck before diving into the lake, would the opportunity for Ron to show the immense courage he did present itself? If no, then would the Sword of Gryffindor then be no more than an ordinary sword forged from steel and fire, without the imbued power to destroy the horcruxes? Much of sheer coincidental luck has been used here to carry the plot, which rather dismayed a Potter fan such as I.

Then comes the part on Ron opening the Chamber of Secrets by repeating the Parseltongue word for ‘open’, which he had heard Harry speak to the locket. Surely Pareltongue is a language that is to be mastered before it can be spoken and actually understood by anyone or anything, and not just mere verbal renunciation? Furthermore, Paerseltongue, unlike other languages, was not even a language that was to be learned, picked up or mastered – it was in-born to remarkably few wizards. Thus I find it quite unlikely for Ron to even be able to speak Parseltoungue by a verbal recollection of what he heard – and even more unlikely to get a response out of a very powerful magic that guarded one of Lord Voldemort’s horcruxes. This regrettably lends to the feel of a rehearsed or staged plot element that could have certainly be better written.

Coming to Severus Snape, arguably the most enigmatic and mysterious and debated character in the entire series, I feel that Rowling could not have done better on fitting together the pieces of the massive jigsaw that has been presented to the reader since Book 1. However, the part of Snape’s one-sided affair with Lily Evans seems to be a weak link in the intricate plots surrounding Snape. Was his one-sided affection for Lily enough for him to betray Lord Voldemort and to switch sides just so that Voldemort may spare the woman who did not, and would not, love him in return? Drawing upon the fact that Snape a Slytherin, it would be more likely and logical that he put his utmost safety before everything else, including a married woman. This said, it still remains that Snape was a man of tremendous bravery (as revealed in Book 7), and of character seldomly observed in a Slytherin. Thus this casts doubts over the wisdom of Snape’s sorting. Perhaps this is the point Rowling has left for us to ponder, that is it our choices truly speaks and reveals the most about us, the most of our character, as Dumbledore has explained to Harry in the past. Although by the end of Book 7 all mystery surrounding Snape was solved, the most philosophic question of the complexity of human nature and of choice and interdeterminsm posted to us by Rowling remains to be pondered by the individual himself.

Dumbledore, yet another enigmatic character - I feel that Rowling has splendidly developed his character further. By revealing more of Dumbledore’s somewhat dark past, Rowling seeks to show that there are no extremes on the spectrum of good and evil, just like she has done for Snape’s character. Having protryed Dumbledore as almost saint-like and the ultimate embodiment of good in the first 6 books, Rowling has now succesffuly made Dumbledore a more nuanced and real character through the portrayal of his past. It also shows that the greatness of Dumbledore’s later years was derived from his conflicts and mistakes. It was indeed a very delightful touch by Rowling, and a great closure for the depart of one of the greatest wizards the world has ever seen.

All in all, I thoroughly enjoyed what I feel to be Rowling’s best book in the series. The book not only presented the readers with an exciting and dramatic ending, tied up loose ends, but left us more about philosophy, life and of course, death than we thought there could possibly be, to ponder about. And that’s what, in my opinion, makes Rowling such a great and masterful author in every sense of the word. '

2007-08-12T23:42:00.001+08:00

added some WCG pictures. (courtesy of peksh, redsun81, sgczhao and sir lion of beef, 2 good photographers. )

This is wilsonchia AKA tetra. he is really really damn pro. bit sad he lost the asian championships to a china player.

Redsun81 :

(i like this picture)

Sir Lion of Beef:

(this is damn funny ahahaha) (1st prize)

Sgczhao

Peksh78

extract:

"yesterday i woke up late and breezy. then boxian bugged me to go to suntec for WCG. so i went. i even cabbed there so i'd reach early, for him! when i finally reached yeah it was quite an eye opened to see so many gaming lovers congregated at one venue altogether, it was quite a good atmosphere, only that looking at the cosplay costumes up close was a spoiler as the costume materials really sucked la. lousy quality.

when i reached i was looking for hot girls as that was one of the big reasons why box went so i wanted to judge his taste. verdict: his taste quite bad HAHAHHAH. no lah (: anyway he was playing CS. and his fingers were moving so fast i now understand what he meant by how he'd go into spasms after finshing playing. heh. he was so engrossed in it! then we walked around and toured the place. stupid boxian said one of the reasons why he wanted me to go was so i could help him take pictures...!!!! because he said he was afraid if strangers helped him take they'd run away with his camera after that. omg so warped LOL box!

so yeah i willingly did and even urged him to take pictures with sales promoters clad in sexy clothing. note: sales promoters, not even cosplay characters. thats what a big heart i have LOL. anyway boxian definitely didn't regret his decision because mr goth king who uses moving rubber and wears chains and jackets was smiling like a million bucks when the girls surrounded him and one hottie even put her hand on him HAHAHAAHA. funny la funny.

then we watched more games here and there looked at more chicks (for him) talked cock and watched CS Warcraft etc. anyway, the main reason why i went was because boxian's a good friend, and i was actually very honoured that he wanted to share something he loves so much with me, and because it means a lot to him i guess i decided i'd do my bit as a friend to enjoy it with him! (: it wasn't a bad choice lah, i realise the happier boxian is the lesser he guailans me "

HAHAHAAHA I CANT STOP LAUGHING AT THAT

2007-08-04T22:42:00.000+08:00

WCG 2007 ! Had lots of fun on friday and saturday at suntec convetion hall 602 man, i think one of the best WCG s ever. met lots of people like Wilson Chia AKA Tetra, my friend Galvin Bay AKA Gosubay, girly.luck and also the all famous imba korean player we.ige.soju. man this rocks im still high now !

2nd August to 3th August was the Singapore Finals, meaning that the games were played among Singaporean gamers. 5th august on would be the Asian Finals, with gamers from asian countries including CHINA, KOREA, thailand etc coming down to compete. somehoe australia and new zealand are included too. met the aus warcraft team yst. moon.glave is here!

on 2rd august i went down to watch the grand finals for warcraft 3 between galvin and girly.luck. i met galvin outside suntec, and he looked really nervous. galvin lost the 1st round but proceeded to win the next 2 to claim the title of Singapore Champion in the best-2-of-3 match. he also won tons of samsung products worth at least 1 thousand dollars. hahaha i'm really happy for him! i watched him play live on stage. there was live commentry too, which sucked because the guy was speaking SINGLISH. and he was trying to speak with an accent.

girly.luck playing against gosubay in the singapore grand finals.

prize giving with GOSUBAY is in the middle. girly.luck is on the right LOL

scoreboard.

having won the Singapore finals, galvin will represent Singapore for the Asian Championships, which would be a tough fight given that china and korea are taking part. china has xiao.t, and korea has soju. wont be easy .

4th august, today. agreed to meet ian for wcg first but didnt in the end. I went down before 12 today where i found galvin siting along. he told me that soju had just "ass-raped his opponent". this does not mean that he was on form though, its just pretty normal for koreans to beat their opponents rather easily.

here's a funfact: Korea has world renowned players like moon, remind, lucifer and fov. yet they decided to just send soju. you do the math.personally i think korea will take the title if not china.

here's a pic of the entrace. the theme is medieval times!

its quite well decorated and well organised actually.there was a center stage (for important matches), gaming area, booths by sponsors and also a really cool cosplay competition! i loved every part of it man ! there was this team singapore booth. looks like esports and professional gaming has been gaining importance and emphasis by SSC in recent years. it's very heartening, beacuse esports is requires just as much passion, sweat, blood and tears as any other sport would. perhaps one day singapore's name is high up with the ranks of china and korea.

actually i was talking to galvin abt professional gaming in sg today. he told me that the clan he was in (in fact 99% of clans in Singapore) do not financially support their gamers. compare this to korea, where gaming clan MYM (meetyourmakers) pay their players 9000USD a month just to train. in this light, korea has a complete edge over singapore in the nuturing and training of esports athelete. the reason for korea's support for gaming is largely due to the large fan base. the korean gamers endorse products from various companies like intel, razor, nike etc. bcause of the stong and self perpetuating gaming culture in korea, people can afford to become professional gamers. at least for the next few years powerhouses like korea and china would continue to dominate the glocal gaming scene. singapore however has lots of potential waiting to be tapped. i would like to see a world champion from singapore... go galvin! ahahah.

pictures of the cosplay competition!!!!!!!!! hot stuff! :D:D:D:D:D

check out the french maid with the gun

this is like... yuck but nevermind.

me and wilson chia AKA tetra, who was world no 2 in 2006. he plays dead or alive 4.

intel and samsung. (photos from GXL)

thanks delphine for helping me to take photos. apparently she enjoyed the counterstrike stage match between singapore and malaysia. singapore won extremely narrowly, 16-15 to advance to the next stage.

hahaha. WCG still on tomorrow (sunday 5th august), so do check it out if you have the time.

im quite disappointed cuz i didnt manage to get soju's autograph and take a photo with him. the times i saw him he was either practicing or talking to his manager. even my friend who was a marshall couldnt help me get into the gaming area to say hi to soju. :(

2007-07-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

im back!

pictures from nationals!

Air Rifle Boys (A Div) daniel, kelvin boxuan, me.

hwachong shooting club 2007! <3>

us and coach

words...cannot express how i feel. every nationals makes me feel like im sec2 again, shooting my first competitions, or even staring at the conveyor for the first time. all i can say is that , its been 5 years.. been good times and bad. i learnt more things in the rifle range than in the classroom, and i learnt more about myself there than anywhere else. i guess .. that's what makes shooting beautiful, and thats what attracts people to it.

burning on.

2007-05-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

ok finaly i've got the pictures from fac outing! actually i got them quite long ago i was just lazy to upload them haha!

ok lemme recall what happened. ok first lihao and i went to delphine's house. we had planned to go shoe shopping with changj initially but he couldnt make it owing to an urgent need to spend time at crys' house. haha that bloke. well still he joined us, and got us all late for the thing. when he finally came, lihao and i had showered and got dressed and we had to wait for him.

this is us just after we got showered and dressed. delphine had just done my makeup, which was basically just black eyeliner. very impressive, now i know she wasnt boasting when she said she good with makeup! i just told her to give me some eyeliner so that i would look like my chemical romance (:D!). very nice job, once again thanks del!

p.s. : its her cherished ambition to be a professional celeb makeup artist!

ok pictures! well this is us after we got showered and dressed. well actually its all on imagestation here's the link: http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2091496529

changj curling his eyelashes.

HAHAHA look at delphine!

So finally whem we left the house we were already 20mintues late. i told changj if we reached within 20minutes it would count as a fashionably late entrance, but no he had to give the wrong address and have the taxi driver turn all the way back. the taxi ride took 40minutes no prizes for guessing how much we paid for it. we waited ages for a taxi. at least we entertained ourselves pretending we owned the sports car parked nearby.

here's pictures of us at the venue.: NTU alumni hall at bona vista. quite a nice place actually , good ambience and all.

hahaahah zouzhao :D:D:D:D:D:D:D we went to her class couch and shooed everyone away to take a foto with her!

the guys of 07S79! changj is missing though.

Class of 07S79!

2007-05-17T21:22:00.000+08:00

argh i've been sick since monday! and i'm not able to miss school until TODAY because of SPA, trainings, important lessons etc. and its quite an incentive to go to school and enjoy the company of changj lihao and delphine too, they really make school quite fun!

my form teacher ms teo is reallly really really very nice, like really one of the best teachers i've gotten! she never scolds us, is super patient with us, and shows endless care and concern! hahaha she even told me to go to sch at 11 tmr after a council investiture. :D

anyway i've recovered now. having a good night's sleep does really help! i even managed to complete work in the morning. i slacked the afternoon away playing games watching dvds and talking to frappy AKA curly cheryl who was very impressed by my eyeliner for fac outing. haha! oh will upload pics one day, still waiting for people to send them to me. :@

was quite touched to hear that im missed in school.

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
or if u wanna coem to schoo

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
u can accompany me

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
and guailan me for 3 hours.

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
DO U MISS IT.

boxian62@hotmail.com says:
that sounded horny

boxian62@hotmail.com says:
HAHAHAAH

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
im sure u do

my.treasure.chest@hotmail.com says:
COME.

hahaha. and anyway mikey way of my chemical romance has temporarily left the band due to bipolar disorder. like LOL! i always knew he would crack, he the only normal guy in the band! gerard's a alchoholic and former drug abuser, it doesnt take einstein to figure out that frank is looney (just look at his concert performance). ray is still quite normal and bob the drummer gets to vent it on the drums. so poor mikey who just plays bass quietly (and i mean really quietly at the back!) becomes the band crackpot. here's a pic of mikey way . hope he recovers soon , mcr's really incomplete without him.. :(

ok back to gp essay writing.

2007-04-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

wow man its so shocking how accurate a blogthing test can be. well at least in this instance. cool man!

You Are The Lovers

You represent ideal love: innocence, trust, exhilaration and joy.
You demonstrate the harmony of opposites, two sides coming together.
At times, you also represent the struggle between what is right and what is tempting.
Control is an issue for you, especially when you don't know your reasons for choosing something.

Your fortune:

You have an important choice you need to make about love, and it will be a difficult choice to make.
You are likely struggling between the love you crave and the love that is right.
In the end, you will choose what you crave, even if it's bad for you.
Because without what you crave, you will feel empty and incomplete.

What Tarot Card Are You?

2007-04-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! no im not dead yet, just that i 've been very busy lately.

first things first. thanks to everyone who celebrated my birthday with me, particularly my class 07s79. thanks everyone for the presents i loved all of them!

engway: impressive you found my blog out, thx for tagging 1000times haha. but pls explain banana.

michelle and tissue: i didnt think u would know it was my birthday cuz i never told u! but thanks anyway! :)

yongjie: yes i know no outstanding award cannot get job next time damn sad :(

here's a pic of me with japanese students, who speak with a really cute accent. the girl is called miki yamarani and she asked me to add her on msn . ^^

Changj and Lihao during pw lesson lol.
lihao is normal but changj is trying to look retarded with my lollipop/sextoy/vibrator/toy.

Delphine acting cute the way i suggested.

i went to watch the Adiv waterpolo finals between hc and rj yesterday. we lost to rjc and came in 2nd with a score of 5-1. quite sad, but we lost to a better team. our waterpolo boys really tried very hard and i think we are true winners in our own right , for the great display of tenacity and the hwachong spirit. ian you played really well, no regrets at all dude!

2007-03-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

haha when was the last time i blogged? i cant rmb. so busy. right now im so lethargic.. and its only the first week of term2? lolol... lots of things happened since the last time i blogged,so i'll just write what comes to my mind now before going to bd without brushing my teeth. zombie.

did i mention im really tired. zomg and i havent done chem practical.... :@

ok shooting! trainings officially in sch now so i wont be in safra anymore our guns have been moved back like 2 weeks ago. so far im adapting good, it feels all too familiar in the sch range. the cosy homely feeling. the sch range, where we all started. where we all fired our first shots. too much significance hits me each time i step into the sch range.. all those memories.. hwachong 2003 - 2006. bitterSWEET.

new coach's been good.very structured training program, which is the kind that i reall prefer actually. ok spex. i have a really bad feeling that our spex is going to be gone. boohoo ssa save a couple of hundred buck and i have less $$$ in my bank.. lets hope our sch trn attendance is submited to ssa HAHA.

schools been good. luckily my class is really crazy and hiliarious or going to sch will be such a torture. good thing i have friends in changj ian lihao shane junyu shuhwee jamie charis AND DELPHINE to make me laugh everyday. delphine dont worry i will keep all the secrets u told me kay? :D

my class is such a funy clas and oh new classmate . ok im really getting tired now..... zzz.my birthday next friday! anyone who's getting me presents, pls give me smt practical! :D:D

ok feeling sloth-like now. byebye!

2007-03-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

the party darius threw was a blast. all the sec4 ppl turned up, very unrestrained cuz there were no girls. :D party was damn fun,his parents werent strict. darius' bro and sis joined us too haha. but i turned up a bit late cuz i was at lunch with my grandpa. before the bbq it was the usual. hanging out in his big entertainment room / playing mahjong. but it got more fun at the bbq, when chinguan suggested poker. won some money at poker and i learnt texas poker too. which i find more exciting. but i ended up losing some money in the end hahaha.

anyway bernard can b a good bartender! he mixed a few drinks for us, which were good, and i when i got home at twelve plus i was little tipsy. hahahah. was on a slight hangover the next morning, so i messed up monthly shoot! haaha actually i didnt train much too cuz of all the cny hols and events. BLAH!

today was NTUIS.how unlucky could i get, my lane malfunctioned and i had to change lanes. the lights at the 2nd lane wasnt working(sara tried to turn it on but accidentally turned OFF the lights of the other shooter at the ajacent bay while he was AIMING hahaha). anyway changing lanes 2x messed up my rythmn. :( so i ended up with 573 and 4th individual placing. 3rd was boxuan with 573, but he won my by countback.damn unluckly LA i always lose last series. :@ anyway, team gold.

gonna mug bio, although everyone will still fail.

oh visit my class blog! www.ohseven79.blogspot.com

2007-02-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

Ah happy CNY. hope you collected lots of red packets! hhee. cny was quite fun, a good break from school. eating cookies counting money gambling boozingTHE USUAL. so back to sch on wednesday where i suddenly realised that feb monthly shoot is on sunday! horror! and NTU is on the next thursday! and i havent trained in 2 weeks . = gg? add on lunch with gramps this saturday afternnon and party at darius' house in the evening + chem test on monday. sounds like much fun, busting my ass over the weekends mugging for chem (though its not really counted actually but still..).

i was quite on in chem lesson today to the extent that i made leeck very very happy. i answered all the questions (save for one question where changj copied my answer and presented it). leeck was teaching atomic strucure SPDF and changj the ip student who has NOT learnt SPDF before went "eh boxian what is F" instinctively i answered him "har, f is fuck lor". apparently i said it quite loudly cuz the front row started to laugh. HAHA.

hmmm for monthly shoot. hahahah the sickening irony. i just got my gun this feb and i dont think i've trained a lot with it.. plus, my boots dont fit anymore. GOOD THING i have a pair with my high sch teacher (which i paid for already!). be getting it tmr before training. and after 1 training with my new peice of equipment, off to the competition i go! how fun ((((x

actually i should have knew it when my feet started to hurt after like 30minutes of shooting. ARGH.

so how? do everything lor. train enjoy cny party shoot. OOH darius says paris hilton going his party. cool right! :P

2007-02-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

Ah happy CNY. hope you collected lots of red packets! hhee. cny was quite fun, a good break from school. eating cookies counting money gambling boozingTHE USUAL. so back to sch on wednesday where i suddenly realised that feb monthly shoot is on sunday! horror! and NTU is on the next thursday! and i havent trained in 2 weeks . = gg? add on lunch with gramps this saturday afternnon and party at darius' house in the evening + chem test on monday. sounds like much fun, busting my ass over the weekends mugging for chem (though its not really counted actually but still..).

i was quite on in chem lesson today to the extent that i made leeck very very happy. i answered all the questions (save for one question where changj copied my answer and presented it). leeck was teaching atomic strucure SPDF and changj the ip student who has NOT learnt SPDF before went "eh boxian what is F" instinctively i answered him "har, f is fuck lor". apparently i said it quite loudly cuz the front row started to laugh. HAHA.

hmmm for monthly shoot. hahahah the sickening irony. i just got my month this feb and i dont think i've trained a lot with it.. plus, my boots dont fit anymore. GOOD THING i have a pair with my high sch teacher (which i paid for already!). be getting it tmr before training. and after 1 training with my new peice of equipment, off to the competition i go! how fun ((((x

actually i should have knew it when my feet started to hurt after like 30minutes of shooting. ARGH.

so how? do everything lor. train enjoy cny party shoot. OOH darius says paris hilton going his party. cool right! :P

2007-02-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

i think i'm a super nice angel/ mortal. haha self praise is good for you! :D

well the angel and mortal game ended on valentines day yesterday!got some pretty presents from weiwen (my angel) and stella (my mortal). hahahah speaking of stella, i was actually really noob in the sense that she found on who i was by my first letter to her . haha, cuz in the letter i accidentally let slip that i had gotten a letter from my angel (cuz at that point in time, weiwen was the only senior to write to someone from my class) haha :( actually cant blame me, because i've never played this game before.

but i think its quite fun, to be able to look forward to recieveing letters (and sweets) each morning.

well for vday i got a wallet, a tie and a showercap (like random,) from stella and weiwen. i bought weiwen a belt and a pair of earrings, and stella 3 pairs of earrings. pretty uncreative, i know. if not for the fact that delphine helped my chose the presents, i think i would have probably gotten them flowers and chocolates.

so on the days leading up to Vday i made very creative letters for stella. am quite impressed myself. first on monday i gave her a bottle of stella artios and a letter. looks like this.

creative right! haha. but curious as to know how i bought the stella artois? well after maths lecture on tuesday i piah-ed to 7-11 only to find out that they did not have the mentioned alchohol. so did several of the shops along bukit timah road. :( my last resort was NTUC at coronation plaza, and fortunately they did carry stella artois. BUT the cashier did not allow me to purchase it, so i had to seek the help of a young man to buy it for me on my behalf. needless to say, he gave me the look, but anything for my angel! haha. then i went back to school, made amendments to the label , stuck my letter in then i left for town with changj lihao delphine and tanting to buy my mortal and angel's present.

then in in my letter i randomly wrote her a poem about a castaway and a treasure. and the next day i gave her this!

omg i think its damn zhai la. it took me quite long to make it actually. first i had to burn the edges of a small piece of sketch paper with a candle (and thus stinking up the whole house). then i dabbed the paper with a wet tea bag to create uneven patches of stained yellow on the paper so that it actually appears ancient. haha and fianally i put the it in a empty glass bottle.

anyway, i drew the map during math tutorial. it's a little messy , cuz i had to keep an eye out for the teacher. haha.. but most importantly, stella managed to read the map and guess where her present was hidden. haha.

obviously stella is very touched, but her present doesnt indicate so . hahaah just kidding!

its good to be appreciated haha . :D

and here are the presents i got.

a goth looking tie, "since you are so goth" - weiwen

and a useful showercap. haha.

tmr cny celebrations. apollo will kick ass for dance competition. :D

2007-02-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

im such a emo shit.halfway during lab yesterday i just decided it wasn't my day, and got all unmotivated. moodswing. weird, lab always does this to me. make me feel so lethargic.. that i dont wanna do anything except stare into space.well i thought it was just the lab, but when i got home i got all irritated and moody for no apparent reason at all. the kind of detached and unmotivated feeling that leaves me not wanting to do anything at all (not even play wc3). i think it must have been really obvious, cuz delphine was like eh you moody is it, and just put up with all the nonsensical stuff i was saying. (which was mostly centered around how i hate gp). still, thanks for letting me rant on and on and on and on. it helped :)

well today! haha we ended at 1130 so changj and liaho and i went to town to eat and buy present for our angel/mortals. chang j had to send __'s mac cable for repairs, but cleverly forgot to bring it , so he had to go back to sch to get it while lh and i waited for him at the busstop. good thing be bought ice kachang for us as a token of his gratitude.

lots of things happen, mostly guailan stuff that im too lazy to type

erm oh outside wisma we saw the entire street lined with ice cream stalls! like at least 5 so i said, lets go talk to icecream uncle. so i asked him uncle whats the diff between the icecream u sell and that the other guy sell? (points to icecream man 50m away) hahaha the uncle said 'all the same' really sheepishly hahahaha . then changj proceeded to guailan . obscene content so shall not say here.

in the end we didnt manage to buy anything, cuz i was running late and had to go for CCA meeting with cca director . hmmm i think i have to go shopping again this weekend. bleagh.

2007-02-03T12:57:00.000+08:00

aaAaaAaaahahahaa. omg high now. do chem until getting high. this week was like totally wacky wacko . everyone on drugs hahaha

DRUGS! check this out, Chang-J the drug addict. hahahaaha. here's the link :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2UAiPpYam-s

actually, he was doing it a long time ago, but we only managed to film it down like on monday. ha
speaking of changj, here's another guailan video of him in the chem lab. video was taken porn-trailer style! hahaha

link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FpJsO19bynE

notice how he shakes 'his thing' at the end. hilarious!
once again, he has been doing this long ago, just that we only managed to film him on thursday. :D

aiyah might as well just go to this page and watch the other 07S79 videos. omg our class is super guailan can hahahaa.

shane's videos : http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=shanesim

credits to shane for taking all the videos with his new nokia phone (forgot what model it is).

im damn high now omg. my chemical romance rocks! zomg go watch the helena video . easily one of the best videos i've ever seen. wooohoo. hahahah i was so high in school yesterday, singing helena with chang-j THE WHOLE DAY. only that i didnt sing for rong as requested, cuz i was getting paiseh . *blushes* haha

and singing hands down with malcolm hahaha. yes thanks malcolm, i know i have good high note voice.

hahahaa. will blog about SENIOR TREAT JUNIOR AT FISH AND CO, JUNIOR TREAT SENIOR AT PIZZAHUT, TALENTTIME (OMFG TALENTTIME). another day.

for now, watch the videos especially HELENA at : http://www.mychemicalromance.com/media

andand for those who love me, you can buy this for me!http://www.mychemicalromance.com/store/

scroll to the bottom and see the HOT RED TIE. :D:D:D:D:D

2007-01-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

yay my p700 is finally here! not bad, its been pretty good and i really like it :D training's been pretty alright, centered around getting the gun feel and customization.. today i moved my trigger closer to the grip.. guess im not used to trigger being far from grip ever since i used Walther.. hmmmm.

i saw coach zhang today, and we exchanged a few words. its a little more formal between us now, but it was a good closure. im grateful for her help and guidance these 4 years. good and bad, there's been both, but she was a good coach to me. well, as i feel, shooting is a journey of self discovery. coach zhang has been instrumental in helping me find more of myself through shooting.she was really a supprtive and dynamic coach to me.

as for the new coach, i havent been formally coached by him yet, but i've had 2 discussions with him when i went over to high school section. We exchanged ideas, got to know each other better, and exchanged shooting philosophy. every shooter/coach has a different and unique perspective to shooting and how it relates to their life, and my new coach, coach zhang was no exeption.

after training today i went to play pool with junhong. this time i didnt get owned bad, i played decently and in the best game i played, i won cuz junhong sunk the white ball hitting the black one. but for the record, there was only 1 of my balls left on the table. considering how imba he is, i guess this is pretty good :)

today royston tan come to our sch. yeah the director of the gritty and horridly honest gangster film 15. we watched his latest film today, i cant rmb the title, but it was a film revolving around a opera troupe in Singapore which is about to disbanded . it was a sincere and honest film, very royston tan style. the film was just made up of different members of the opera troupe singing a song which "represented them the most". as expected, most songs were emotional and poignant, and it really struck a chord in my heart because i could understand the dialect it was sung in. anyway, royston said he made the film into a continuous movie as he thought making it documentry style would be boring..

anyway after the film i went backstage. yongjie and fangkai and micheal joined me and we asked royston tan abt 15 jhahahaha. but his answers were really amusing. apparently he shadowed various members of a gang for 2 years as part of his research o_0. thus the film 15. woww..

tmr class outing.. still deciding whether i should go to darius' band jamming session and help them sing vocals in the morning. eh darius, i will consider joining your band hahaha.AWWW shit i cant rmb the band name...

bleh.

2007-01-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

my coms running outta space so i was looking for things to delete :o ... so i found something i wrote last year.. its been pretty long now, pretty much burried away, but i guess the feeling never really faded yea?

Don't take too long to understand,
Or hesitate.
Even if the stars start to fade,
I'll tell you I love you.

But before I start to dream
Of all the what-ifs and could-bes,
I'll tell you that I like you.

And before you leave
On that ship to a place far far away,
I'll tell you that I love you
And I'll pray that you'll stay.

:(

2007-01-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

my class is big on birthdays. in fact, big on everything! super enthu class and damn fun, man i love 07S79. :D

today was chang-j's birthday, we got him a cake and a card, both claimed from class fund. cake was some choc cake from bengawan solo, card was from hallmark FIVE DOLLARS!! haha we all wrote birthday wishes for him, and i wrote "i will give u caterpillar". dont understand right? heheh only he and i knows what it means. :D

and delphine!violent person. i shall describe why.

*sees delphine eating a banana while everyone is eating cake*
BoXian: Eh why are u eating a banana?
Delphine: Cuz it's nice! and got protein! Makes you strong!
*giggles punches me in the stomach*

************************************************************************************

Delphine: Eh i know everyone in this school you know?
*Points to a random person and asks her what is his name*
Delphine: (Says a name, but i dunno if its correct cuz i didnt know the guy :P
*Points to LooFangKai*
BoXian: ok who is he?
Delphine: Erm eh ..... ....
BoXian: Ah dunno right! He is FANGKAI.
Delphine: OH YA FANGKAI NOW I REMEMBER.
BoXian: No no no dont lie you dunno him.
Delphine:Yes i know him!
BoXian: NONONONNO Liar!
*giggles punches me in the chest*

************************************************************************************

tsk tsk. violent.haha oh and she keeps stealing my wallet. ikea!

after that i went to help out for air rifle trials. LOLOL huijun wants to join shooting. and she keeps sticking her tongue out at me :P eh my tongue longer pls.

so junhong came after that apparently for high sch trails. but he realised there was no trails and wanted to play pool with me. so i bought an ATHENA t-shirt to wear (They were out of apollo) and we went to beautyworld to play pool. he is still damn pro despite claiming that he has not touched the cue stick since b4 A levels. since i have played pool for less than 5 times in my life, he decided to teach me some tricks. take me under his wing. SIAO.

but i improved after that. he can teach quite well. so after making a jaw droppping shot, he said " eh i think you will be damn pro next timei was about to thank him when he said, "cuz is i teach you one." hahaha.

2007-01-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

school's started!

lectures, tutorials. the workload is pretty light now, but i think thats only for now. im sure pretty soon everything will start pouring in and i'll be burried under work.. we just got our timetables on monday, mine is pretty decent. no long and useless breaks in between (which will likely be squandered slacking or playing cards) and best of all, school ends rather early save for thu and fri! (:

orientation was really great! the seniors must have put in lots of time and effort to organise such a fantastic 2 weeks! orientation ended with the campfire (that was indoors due to the weather LOL) , with everyone getting high. go to http://www.wanzwphoto.blogspot.com for pictures!

and my class this year is great too! people i know are CHANG-J, jansen, shou xian, yuan guang and malcolm. the girls are from a variety of schools, but mostly NYGH. everyone in my class is really friendly, so we're bonding well :) and my senior class is quite cool also, very very nice seniors. also got my shooting senior melvin gan. LOL. speaking of him.. i covered him for CCA orientation, so i was there at the booth giving the introductory speech like a PRO J2 which everyone thought i was.. and he wants me to cover him tmr for the tryouts. GO FISH.

oh here's a photo with my class and my senior class. 07S79 and 06S79!

another pic!

(i'm on the extreme left, in uniform , behind malcolm in PE. )

Wah super blur images. .

oh ya.. a lot of ppl asking me about air rifle. do you have a gun? can it kill people? can it shoot birds? can you bring it home? HAHA i think i'll answer them next time.. hahaha i shall go do math tutorial now (:

2007-01-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Mutt
performed by Blink-182

He pauses shaving and he tells himself that he is the bomb
She has her curlers set, her credit cards are paying the funds
He’s not that old, I’ve been told
A strong sexual goal

They go out every day
She goes every way...oh yeah!
They don’t even care at all

She's open waiting for more
And I know he's only looking to score
And it is way too unhealthy
Often they’ve typically
Been starved for attention before

She smokes a dozen and he doesn't seem to notice the smell
He took the seat off his own bike because the way that it felt
He wants to bone, this I know
She is ready to blow

They go out every night
His pants are super tight...oh yeah!
They don’t even care at all

she's open waiting for more
and i know he's only looking to score
and it is way too unhealthyoften they've typically
been starved for attention before(x2)

Blink 182 rocks! its so sad they've broken up.. :( they're truely the best rock band ever! they just have so much band synergy. so much going on there.. good music, great live acts, lots of fans. its a real pity they disbanded...

oh ! orientation has been fine. hcjc looks good man. we just had lots of talks and of course, dance i cant dance for nuts. campfire how hehh :)

2007-01-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

happy new year people!

i was at orchard with my friends yesterday for the new year. we broke a few laws, and had great fun . well, new year after all :D

first i had met chuanxin and chuanhan at orchard mrt at around 7pm. it was a superb start to the celebrations with the exciting change of plans about 5 times. first cx said go orhard at 6, then change time to 6.30, then change venue to summerset, change back to orchard, change to wisma, and back to orchard again cuz he dunno how to go wisma.

and cx couldnt recognise me T__T.

there was a small stage set up at cine , where we went after dinner. soon we were joined by jon and bryan just as the voicebox performance was starting. we didnt linger for the performance, cuz they wanted to play pool with darius david damien and jeremy.

we left at around 15minutes to 12, only to find the whole stretch along orchard road flooded with banglas. :O they were shouting and making a riot, and many got detained by the police. god is merciful.

there were little pockets of people celebrating the new year in their own way, and lots of foam spray. we resorted through shoving our way through the crowd to prevent getting sprayed. some of them wanted beer, so i was sent to buy from 7-11. managed to prevent chuanxin from getting drunk, but failed to prevent him from spraying wheelock place with beer. hahahah.

at around 2plus we went to darius' big big big house where we played mahjong and listened to darius practice guitar. 6.30am i dragged myself to the mrt station and went home.

2006-12-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

merry xmas people!

omg no one told me the links to my photos werent working. except fangkai who told me a week ago, but i was just lazy to do anything about it. zzz.

yes its LAG and i know. i went to melb november end, so i guess the pics are an entire month late :O.

oh right! here's the link : http://www.imagestation.com/7010749/3951031451 << click!

anyway, for bbq stingray lovers, be sure to try out the stingray at this restaurant at the sembawang yatch club! easily the best stingray i've tasted in ages man. :D

2006-12-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

aaaaahhhh im feeling so dizzy now! just like a hangover, minus the headache. AaaaA i dunno why, i just feel so .. flOaty? haha i got home like this.

first i went for monthly shoot today. im satisfied with my score of 580, because i was in good control of myself during the shoot. :) well overall i'll say this is a good and fond last shoot of the year. the last competition of the year ends off at a good note. 580 - personal best with my Walther LG300xt gun!

right now im having mixed feelings towards my gun. on one hand i find that personally i do not prefer the walther rifle due to its CG and 'gun feel'. i have trained for a little more than 6months with this rifle, which is a considerable amount of time. still i feel that the feinwerkbau suits me the best. i know some people will blame everything on the rifle bLah blah and BLaH!, but to me my shooting philosophy is : its my finger that pulls the trigger. (ok thats a direct translation from chinese)

so after struggling 6 months adapting trying to ride on the benefits of walther and playing down its weakness, i must really say it has been a great companion to me during today's competition, or during every competition for that matter. today was extremely hard fought, (im so tired now!) and i must say it has served me well, giving me the best score in a while on the last competition of the year, on its final shootn with me. to me, its significant.

i dont know about other shooters, but i like to think that my rifle is sentient, and not just a lump of metal. thats why i prefer to stick to a gun and not change once every 2 months. (the wooden grip feels warm in my hands, kinda like its alive hehe).

well it has been a great experience with walther. though this year has been really hard and depressing, i have learnt a lot with regards to shooting :D

so next year i'll b using p700 alu. i hope i will get the benefits and convenience of a compressed air rifle combined with the superb gun feel fwb is renowned for.

2006-12-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

a number of things to blog about today.

first , thanks to michelle low zi hua for my new blog skin! once again, i managed to change skins and install tagboards links ect ect ECT under 30minutes! a html noob like me is so lucky to have so many friends to help me with my blog. im a lazy blogger! (only im allowed to say that xDD)

let me recall. i remember sharon helped me with my first blog with a few blogskins designed by her. i cant remember which one i chose, but it must have spent her at least half a day teaching me html, which includes

>changing the blog name
>input of personal details
>link
>tagboard (HAHA that one took up at least an hour)
>archives
>ect ect ECT

edit:for the tagboard i had her install it for me in the end cuz i was lazy to do it. xDDD

haha how can i then be not grateful to her for helping a html noob lazy blogger like me? not to mention the times when i approached her for help when i did some reinstallation or template changes.

next up is .. sara! i was tired of my old blog skin one day when i told her : eh i wanna change blogskin, can u design one for me (cuz her blogskin is a beautifully self designed one). well she agreed and within 3 days i got this really wonderful picture as a blogskin , all done up in html form such that all a lazy noob like me would have to do is CTRL-C and CTRL-V!

can you believe she drew this?? this is how talented she is man. oh her current blog design uses an image drawn by her too, which is similiar to this. www.tsuru.blogspot.com
once again, thanks sara!

and just yesterday i was helped my michelle how gave me this design, from her vast and expansive database of blogskins. not to be underestimated, this is the result of the painstaking efforts of a yearly 2 hour search for attractive blogskins. among the very few premium and outstanding designs that caught her eye, she gave this one to me! tear-jerking no?

haha but seriously, thanks michelle! anyway she has a blog entry dedicated to me for my unwavering support in her IH project. click ! www.breathe--.blogspot.com

haha reminds me of a message sent by my friend guan yongjie. we were crapping via sms one day when i saw this message which left me laughing for a few minutes. here's how it goes.

yj: fraught and wrought, with uncertainty. a path forged, into impossibility. the future dogged and fogged, with anxiety. i willingly trudge in smudge, firm in the knowledge of loyalty. a friendship that would last and outlast, eternity.

HAHAHA. damn touching no? ok michelle the above is the force behind my fullest support for your IH project. xDD

'fraught and wrought, with uncertainty. a path forged, into impossibility. the future dogged and fogged, with anxiety. i willingly trudge in smudge, firm in the knowledge of loyalty. a friendship that would last and outlast, eternity'

but honestly, im really very fortunate to be able to have so many people to rely on each time i change my blog settings. its like i usually end up not having to do anything myself ! (that's how i manage to change skin under 30mins each time, including finding a new design.

2006-12-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

The princess sat on the ivory throne as ancient as the castle, both aged with time and her father’s rule. The jesters came and went in their bright costumes; the knights came and went with their mighty steeds. Still she couldn’t put a finger to it, to what was missing. The jesters couldn’t please her, the knights didn’t interest her. Sitting in the golden hall, in the land of the riders, she was really waiting for nothing in particular to happen. Waiting, waiting and waiting. And waited she did as the jesters still came and entertained, as the knights came and went.

But he watched as he passed the hall, the ordinary page boy in rags. He smelt of the horses he fed, looked of the chores in the stables. He caught a glimpse of her, through the elaborate movement, through the jesters and their mimes, through the knights and their grand steeds. As if their destinies had impossibly met for a brief moment, for a moment interwined, she caught his eye. Then he was gone just as quickly, hidden by the frills of the maids’ dresses, concealed behind the loud boasts of the dukes. The fluttering curtains hid him, the diming light of the dusk shrouded him, the lines of ambient light sunset provided as they filtered through the dark battlements of the castle concealed him. And once again the princess couldn’t quite put a finger to what had was missing, the feeling eluding her once again. She craned to get a view, to see beyond the court subjects and their treachery, to look pass her king and queen and their dreams for her, to find what was so missing in her life. But she couldn’t see, blind as she was, she couldn’t see pass anything.

Like a blind spot in time he was gone. Alone down the past the battlements, down the corridor, he was, feeling warmer in his heart; as though he was whole for once; he felt happier than he had ever did in his life as a castle page. Giving a fleeting thought to the moment earlier sorely on impulse, and feeling the warmth crept back into his heart despite the cold winter chill that seemed to emanate from the very castle. It was a moment short lived, as the horse feed he had in his hands seemed to call out to him to feed the horses in the stables.

2006-12-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

uploaded my pics from melbourne! click ! >>>

yay i finally deleted the stuff on my tagboard! thx to all who helped me with its configuration ! cuz the tb wasnt displaying posts :( now it works .

i want xmas party pls. we just need to find a sucker to lend out his place man.

yesterday! shiing brought a cow to safra. naturally at safra cow = sara chong everyone knows, just that the sara cuter than the cow. i think zi jin (tissue) got the plush toy for shi ing as a bday present, but its really sad that it got cownapped by chao xiang. i admit i admit i was his accomplice.

but i must admit the cow brought us lots of joy and fun. ahhh the joyful xmas season .

when we cownapped the cow (damn i cant rmb its name. someone pls tell me!) we first sat it on the chairs near the compressor. then i decided that it'll be nice to imitate it. sounds easy no? NO! it was hard and chaoxiang and i looked really spastic trying to look like -insert cow name-
and if the people shooting from lane 21 - 26 turned around and looked thru the door, they would probably think we had lost our mind shooting. T___T

pretty boring after that, only that we played captain ball. wrong captain -insert cow name-.

the cow got stuffed into chaoxiang's locker too, and it was grey and spelling of lead after that. quite sad man, its a new plush toy. i imagine shiing will get lead poisoning tonight, since she said she sleeps with the cow.

the real moo (sara) came later on just as i went to play pool with everett.got owned. T___T i beginner can?

after getting owned i went down to pack up my stuff. there i saw alice at the counter. i had actually seen her some 3 hours ago there, seems like she's acting cute sitting at counter. so i asked her and i realised that she's working there part time at 7bucks a hour. all she has to do: collect/give pass, collect/return money, print reciept. that's all omg. even better than hilton which pays only 5bucks / hour from 7pm - 12 am. (but hilton gives cab fare home) but still $7 and $7.80 per hour on weekdays and weekends repectively is a lot better than hilton. can do! next time i train finish can i go try, its so slack man. sit there psp/play handfone/read book/ read newspaper also can, not as if every sec got people draw gun. xDDD so good right

after showing the cow to sara i went to arcade to find everett zijin and shiing paraparaing. no offence but the game looks uber retarded, and zijin even asked me for the reason for my lack of participation in parapara. ok so maybe we different channel

here comes the bad thing i did. zijin asked me out for a movie , heres how it goes

zijin: wanna watch movie later?
me:with you all ah?
zijin: yeah!
me: orh no .

HAHA ok sorry i dont mean it pls dont me angry. not that i wanna dau you, but the words came out b4 i could stop myself. didnt pass thru my brain.

2006-12-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

ahh its been long.

many things happened , but overall i 'll say i've been good.

melb trip - will upload the fotos really soon. :D

i went changi today to recieve the shooting contigent back from doha. predictably, the place was swarming with reporters, and the entire of AI ARc was there to support van jasmine and vampire ser. later on ms teomh and sec1 and sec2s arrived from bk, where they were treated to a free lunch by teomh. unfortunately i am vegetarian today cuz its 15th of the month by the chinese calendar.

go upload fotos. .bye

2006-05-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

ah go hainan tomorrow. what's the place like im still not very sure, but i do know that the camp is not physically rigorous. so im bringing a mix of street wear and some old clothes to be safe, cuz we'll be staying in villages for a while and experiencing a farmer's life. good to know where your rice comes from eh?

i've been told that hainan is a very developed and almost on par with singapore, like got policeman and stuff haha! but hainan is so big, and not all parts of it are developed.. then they say village is just used to describe the community bond, and the villages are actually flats and estates .rmb to bring sweets for village children lol.

yesterday went orchard after csm, which was totally timeawasting. if i hadnt had maths to hand in i wouldn't go . so 4j classroom was used for chinese test makeup and we ended up in 4d for refuge.. they were watching youtube and playing ball , my friends copied like 8 excercises of math and i slept a while. and i forgot to bring 2 maths excercises i done like wdh.pls don't be mad at me mr png.

we had to escape from cms to go there and we fooled arnd with the npcc sentries. ernest haha he took limyi's ic and said his name was limyi, gave the ic and went out.den limyi got no ic hahaha.dm caught us loitering around. then we fell to the floor to keep low just for fun but he saw and shouted. ok yongjie charismatic then ok no problem already.

oh orchard. bought my new shoes after chuanhan took me to the wrong place 2 times.before that we tried to track yongjie and his 23year old godmom from his chruch.lost him in the first minute, man what terrible secret agents chuanhan and i would make. so i smsed him 'eh yj u win la gg, rm pls' also a girl tried to scam yj asking if he was a model.

we saw a pretty girl reading a book at the benches outside wisma. how cute, i mean it's like a total turn on for me!

2006-05-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

goodbye alice in wonderland - the title itself almost makes you reach for you wallet. that's the name of jewel's latest album.heard 'again and again' and yupp it's good! extremely jewel style and a bit malachonic. but we can't get enough of that whatever the case

anyway i ended up clearing out the trash in staffroom with yongjie today, because of a screwed up and redundant attempt to explain why we were late for english lesson. but it went very fast, cuz there were 4 of us. yj and i left a note on MrLimth's table to tell him that it wasnt house elves or pixies that emptied his dustbin but rather 2 of his favourite students.

had planned to go look at shoes with chuanxin today. need to buy new pair . but we saw ernest and darius the aussie about to leave sch. so we ended up at coro to eat at some cafe. the food wasn't fantastic, but the storeowner was fun to be with. ernest went in with a bang and crash and i almost thought he knew the storeowner on a personal level. like auntie or neighbour or something. apparently not, it's just his oozing charisma that she likes him haha (: i had the terriyaki rice, and i certainly enjoyed the star shaped rice. worth the $3.95 i paid yup.

2006-04-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

so i'm going hainan for camp. which is a good thing because 'hianan is the window to chinese culture'- giddy guan. i would have prefered perth though.. but i guess hainan'll be a great experience as well!after all its my first time on a overseas camp o.O

anyway mr png got really pissed off today. like suddenly he got very angry. but you can't really blame him yeah, cuz its the last lesson of the day and our class havent exactly been ideal for a while .. but still. at least listen to him when he's scolding... some people were still talking and i think he knew.. and he was having a backache today.felt real sorry for him man and he's a realy great math teacher..BLahH!

2006-04-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

i really think our class wil have to perform our 24.5marks hyj spoof on teachers' day . that's a really scary thought. and now that mrs chan wants to screen every class performance before the actual think in assembly, the performances would definately be very decent. decent to get high marks and beat us or decent but get low marks? very worrying.

hrp lit reivew is exhausting. so this year no more pair work, suddenly only myself to rely on - the responsibility and seemingly seriousness of the entire issue is heavy. the previous years were more relaxed with a partner, very shag-style. now its solo the entire thing is made to seem very solem to me and im always on my toes. regret not working damn hard in sec2 and sec3, but i got quite gd marks then. guess will be better this year .

i'm into batman all of a sudden. its sorta i was looking through my childhood memories, and i opened a door with 'batman' on its label and suddenly all the memories of the dark vigilante comes back in a flood. it was quite a fresh experience, wallowed in all the memories. got some good graphic novels from bugis libary, which i once went during projects day prelims with chuanxin.... that's quite bad, but more productive than lazing around school..

so i watched some episodes of batman the animated series on the net. made me feel like a kid again, and then i suddenly realised how allusive some of the episodes were.sure it may be a cartoon for little kids (like i was then), but it certainly exhibited depth that could possibly match that a short movie. themes of tragedy, betrayal , pain were prevalent and watching them now from a different perspective, i still love them as i did as a child, but prob for slightly different reasons. and the theme of tragey is so strong and tangible that it is almost real.. in the simplicity of a crime fighting hero a young child could understand holds many complex issues of the world and heart. stunning.

but that's just me - try to understand i grew up on batman and used to think he was real. wait, maybe he's real. i don't know.

2006-03-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

hrp go away.australian chicks come.

no one handed in lit review on monday.i was too busy over the weekends with stuff and monthly shoot which i shot 582 for.moderate but i still regret over the last 4 shots. learnt lots from this shoot and got some practical experience. shan't elaborate..

i shouldn't be working on my birthday.sweet sixteen !!! where's the pretty girl next door with a kind gentle spirit. haha. today was a long and dull and methodical day.comtemplated going to town but thought it would be time wasting so i went home and then safra. waited for lanes - got one in running target range before the ri duo showed up and proceded to kope lanes from OUTSIDE.resourceful rafflesian spirit.

put perth first choice for camp. may possibly migrate there in future or go for a long vacation there. thus australian chicks. (darius has a house in perth.fuck him im jealous

2006-03-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

cip was at orhard selling 50 collar pins at 2 dollars each.was quite fun at the heart of singapore in the middle of faces in the crowd.tiring but definitely fufilling.it felt really good at the end of the day to be able to help the less fortunate - chidren's cancer foundations - sort of a sense of achievement and wellbeing. the collar pins were quite nice actually, but lots of people just donated and didnt take them. foreigners not so generous.

"i've got no money!"

"can't help!"

"another day."

still ,it's the locals who really give generously. 2dollars, 5 , 10. and with a smile. a lady even came back to give more! it was really heartwarming.

what can i say, after that went to shop arnd paragon.crumpler bags are ex, i cant buy, that's why i hope i'll get on on 30march for my birthday.

hinthint.

but drop by paragon if you can. there's a mini photo exhibition near the entrance on feature shots on local celebs.great photo schoot definitely worth looking at. SO.after cip i got onto the train at 635 going raffles place to get smt for my mom.the directions she wrote were quite vague so i had like 12 minutes to find the place. okay ran around like a lost puppy but i found the place amidst lots of bars and cigarette smoke. singapore river is very scenic. i thought, good place to seek inspiration and then i saw a man writing by the river. haha. and fullerton hotel looks greats, reminds me of sec2 lilies by the river cip which was .. relaxing.

train tmr?

2006-01-02T21:25:00.000+08:00

ahh 2005 went by relatively fast, not to mention the end of year holidays. this year exams i messed up.quite bad, but not that bad. basically it was lack of luck and bad planning. my revision schedule wasnt adhered to and the study strategy was a little off. so i ended up with an o.k grade as a result - 3.29 . but far too high for my liking. sometimes it just doesnt turn out your way. well you can moan, holler and maybe tear about all the shit you get, but it's this way. still i prefer to take it in my hands. its under control.

2006. wow long pants year haha. actually besides the problem of heat, i prefer long pants.feels ... good. :) hmm i feel like blogging more about the year that just went by, but i feel like sleeping. of course the latter over the former.

ps - i want to sleep more in 2006 than i did in 2005. ids sorta bad for me to sleep little ya?

2005-12-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i updated. many things seem to have happened, many changes taken place.but it all does seem to have a way of blending into a quick blur in our memories, doesnt it just like as if a careless swipe of paint from a child's brush. makes it look as though we've chosen to let it be blended into a intagnible blur. makes it look as though we've chosen to forget.

what a little culprit time is. but i like the child in him.

haha.i just heard a few songs moments ago.which really brought back some memories, both good and bad.yes and looking back i realised i have changed as a person. i'm not sure how, it's more of a feeling and the thoughts that run through my head. they've sorta been different. i've been different. perhaps in a more reserved way... but i doubt much will notice the different. it was quite gradual, which was what i intended. well it must have been all the hurt and the blame. i just sorta saw that many things werent the way the way. jaded business, shaded truths. and all the little ironies. and the sweet misery. :)

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice
My God I thought you were someone to rely on
Me? I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

god i love this song.ids so melachonic and yet so ironically true. but im fine now.was long ago.just that hearing some songs again brought back some memories. haha i sound really old.gosh and im only 15. what's gonna happen when i'm 30 with 3 kids and a maybe a beer gut? (strange, alchohol turns me off) _

2005-11-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

it's the sad songs over and over again. it's the screw ups over and over again. it's the same shit over and over again. too much deja vu, too much of a (bad) tune stuck in the head. i felt quite disillusioned about shooting today.the quality of my training is one thing, and the situation in another. i don't feel very passionate about training recently, like there's not much of a drive. i tried to imagine myself having shot maybe 59+ last monthly shoot, and asked myself if it would mean that i was more passionate about training. but it wasnt so, wasn't that way. and this is quite a big difference as compared to maybe one or two years ago, when i was very enthusiastic about everything.damn, there are somethings i cant say here now, with al the shit going around.

the shit.we don't seem to get enough of it.one thing after another, a sick cycle.in the shooting scene, granted that there might be some friction between people, a few disagreements here and there.but now it's so mad, the shooters are affected. it sorta repels me from the safra. kills the passion. but main thing is still, within me.gotta sort it out myself. time is running out for me. december hols is the time to go, without the burden of schoolwork.

2005-11-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

's been some time since i last blogged.nothing much's been happening, just that i feel a bit different. like suddenly my world's been gone from colored to just plain o' black and white. even my music tastes stale now...

it's the really tired feeling.like deja vu's happened too many times.i'm restless.so i just walk around town, guess i'm just bored.going around town seems a lot more fun now, the gotta see the world feeling just sorta settled in me.hmmm maybe i'll try to save it too while i'm at it.but hey, that's for superheroes, not me.not i

2005-10-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

it's raining now, beautiful. i dunno why i love the rain, ids so calming.and it feels right.and smells right.

well i ponned school today.first time in the year.was eoya today, smt at east coast.worth ponning but looks like i should have ponned tomorrow, cuz tomorrow's quite packed.so i went to get mc at polyclinic.haha the doc knew i wasnt sick i thnk she say it in my eyes. she just did a very brief check and to me to go pharmacists. didnt waste time waiting for meds, so i went counter straight pay for consultation fee. the lady looked shrewd, so i put on my best innocent expression and said i had recover so med not needed.

haha den zao home den safra.

why should i have ponned tomorrow?cuz i told my mom i would go shopping with her as i thought no school.man felt really bad telling her i cant go cuz i ponned today already. i thought it was 3 day mc, but then how gives 3 day mc to a person who looks healthy.haha.wasted.

and training tomorrow.haha i just played a game of warcraft with david and darius.ffa i won darius he was orc i was elf.supposed to be bad match for elf.(david got dc-ed) next game i lost cuz david + darius against me haha imba.i demand rematch cuz i started with wrong build order.

fine im gna catch some Zs.i'll b glad if the rain continues into the day. (:

2005-10-25T06:25:00.000+08:00

"Who Will Save Your Soul"
performed and composed by Jewel

People living their lives for you on TV
They say they're better than you and you agree
He says "Hold my calls from behind those cold brick walls"
Says "Come here boys, there ain't nothing for free"
Another doctor's bill, another lawyer's bill
Another cute cheap thrill
You know you love him if you put in your will

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flower
Who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, boy
Who will save your soul if you won't save your own?

We try to hustle them, try to bustle them, try to cuss them
The cops want someone to bust down on Orleans Avenue
Another day, another dollar, another war, another tower
Went up where the homeless had their homes
So we pray to as many different God's as there are flowers
But we call religion our friend
We're so worried about saving our souls
Afraid that God will take His toll
That we forget to begin

Who will save your soul when it comes to the flower
Who will save your soul after all the lies that you told, boy
Who will save your soul if you won't save your own?

Some are walking, some are talking, some are stalking their kill
You got social security, but that don't pay your bills
There are addictions to feed and there are mouths to pay
So you bargain with the Devil, say you're o.k. for today,
You say that you love them, take their money and run
Say it's been swel, sweetheart, but it was just one of those things
Those flings, those strings you've got to cut,
So get out on the streets, girls, and bust you butts.

Who will save you soul when it comes to the flower
Who will save you soul after all the lies that you told, boy
Who will save your soul if you won't save you own?

2005-10-24T14:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes you really amaze me, the way you do the things do you. its just so perfect.well that's why i fell in love with you in the first place isnt it, that's the way it is.cant really help myself, cant do nothing.

i've stopped tearing for you.finally i have set myself free.no longer addicted to the pain.no longer feeling that my bed's cold at night, no more second guessing or trying to understand you,to know what goes on behind your eyes.your soulful eyes.

baby but thing is i still love your voice.i still get lost in your eyes - gazing deep into them only when i'm sure you're not looking.i still pretend im ok when you say hi.i sitll try not to talk to you too much... still i do look at you when you're walking way, and perhaps whisper into my heart where my deepest secrets lay.but still... ...

2005-10-21T12:34:00.000+08:00

ok back to training? man there's so much to blog about, ok physics and maths exams first.

-physics was set by steven su, i heard from the proed people that his tests are free frag. free fraq leh TYS questions!FREE FRAG! emphasis on the word free. so apparently we yongjie and i got this info somewher around 2 days before the test. if we had spammed tys lke hell (looking back now, we REALLY should have), we would have breezed thru the exams.the exams is the can get full marks kind if u prepare v well. considering that we practically knew nuts for physics, and we had to cover almost the entire syllabus, we had no time to SPAM tys. ok nvm we always get to pull off tricks and stuff. but the paper was really relatively easy - one can easily get high A1 if he prepared well. ok for me i was betting on my chem paper but the chem paper was set in a way that u have to study a lot to get say 1 more mark as compared to the physics paper where one has to study just as much to get say 3 mark.

so wad have we learnt? get your strategy right by predicting that mok will set a bomb paper and that steven su is as simple minded as he looks and speaks and acts.

steven su hahahahahah im laughing now he's so funny.

ok maths was managable nth much to say luckily transformation was ok.-we played dota in com lab during transformation lessons. (:

training.so i went on friday it was bad.today i went again, tho there was not much passion and drive and want.i went cuz i needed to go to train for ms.which was never the way i went for training.it felt bad inside, like i was commiting some crime against myself and the sport and the passion.

it was below average later, towards the end coach came and i found myself agian.like i was revived and i could feel it getting right.my actions went right and the shots were getting better.safra is still quite quiet, so much has changed there.i think i still need the time to sort it out within myself, to really be burning with passion.i think i just need to find myself, to burn, and burn brighter and stronger than ever before. (:

think i'll go play warcraft.

lets go nuts together baby!

2005-10-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

feeling very tired and lethargic now. well it was a beautiful day today, it rained :). but dont know why im feeling down now, today mugging was not as fast as i wanted it to be. bio exams's on tuesday but frankly, since friday after math everyone's slacking.wrong wrong, good thing i started this morning.

this sucks. i went training yesterday and it sucked big time.in fact, the last few trainings were not good too.its like a constant deterioration decay thing. true, i train once a week cuz of exams, but i don't think it'll be that bad.

another thing is the moood and atmosphere.the place is so dead, barely anyone goes there.granted a few ntt shooters would be there, but most of the times i went it was always doc. and maybe some safra people.worse thing is everything there is about politics, always this and that, people causing trouble and stuff.after that thing that happened, its not encouraging to go there any more.explains why the place's dead.the mood is killed, the love's goneaway.i can almost feel my passion for the sport being siphoned away.

Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

when i go there, the tension is so strong that you can feel it in the air.everything's so tensed up now, many things going on behind, things you cant see. it used to be a positive shooting atmosphere, one that would possible propel the standard of singapore's shooting to greater heights. but from what it seems like now, its one step forward two steps back thing.

come to think of it, there has been so much trouble. take the seasa thing for instance, i wont say much but a cancelled junior event for air rifle is weird. and the rules that came along with it.

the mood's killed, the passion and love's gone. last time i loved to train, i trained cuz i wanted to. now i actually feel like staying at home to play warcraft rather than going training. last time safra was a place with positive shooting atmosphere, banters and jokes among people. now it's a warzone.

the entire thing makes me sick to the stomach.i think it affects everyone, the times i went there recently most of the people there had this tu-lan look. the stench of death is getting to us.its killing us and the passion.

i totally agree with junhong's post.

2005-10-12T16:49:00.000+08:00

ok almost late for chem exam today.i missed my bus but somehow i thought i could make it.waited for the enxt bus for 7 minutes and on the way i realised that cannot get there on time D: so i got off took cab.

cab ride v fun.uncle was damn cool.he drove well, sorta reminded me of the red hot chilli peppers' by the way mv.and he scolded the car in front fuck.i said he got style.

siewyp was invigilator erm my sec1 maths teacher.niao me for being late.my adreneline was on high whn i did the paper. i went to the toilet due to stomachache xD she asked me why i took so long.tempted to reply that i went to read notes but not worth the risk considering her mood today.ok told her i had stomachache.

bryan was seriously convinced that i went to jack. xDD like how fun is that! chem is turn off. only he will have this kind of ideas la!confirm is he entertained that thought seriously b4 or maybe he did it b4 considering his character. xD

mok was setter.the sour faced teacher.but she looked smug and happy today.queer paper weird questions not the typical chem exam style.yeah but i studied for it guess i'll be fine.really.

2005-10-12T08:34:00.000+08:00

shit i think im having a fever now. exothermic reaction. feel so damn tired now...

2005-10-02T10:00:00.000+08:00

it feels all so weird.im living in a randm world, logic no longer exists - no longer functions. he's down and out, no longer what he was. look at him in this state, he sits in a dark corner at the streets, wrapped in a drty traveling cloak. he looks at you as you walk past , or should i say move past in anyway you like really, (cuz walking is a logical algorithm of putting a foot in front of another). he looks at, and for a moment u glimpse in his eyes a flicker of desperation. before you can linger longer, you're whisked away to another place and time of total randomness and illogic.

and reason? reason cant be found. he's run away, insane. reason has lost his mind, and he's running, running away from insanity that snaps at his heels like hungry hounds. ironic, but insanity is in his head - and in the same context, they are in his own ilogical world.

haha i just woke up - everything's so disoreinted and illogical now. you know the feeling whn your mind's full with so many random and illogical and unrelated thoughts that do not flow at all. been sleeping past 12 this weeek, (slpt at 2 yst). so i slpt for abt 2 hours just now and got a glimpse into a world that runs pararell to the one we live in.

madness? yeah baby,

coldplay's clcoks suit my thoughts v well now.

anyway i dreamt of mathamatics that i have been mugging for beforehand.

2005-09-30T14:58:00.000+08:00

my blogger looks abit screwed right now.weird, but today the whole class excet chuanhan and zongjin got sent to libary f not doing physics homework. like o.0 so only the 2 of them left in class.zj's exempted from every shit exams except eng (haha!). chuanhan did his work like a usual mugf***. haha

so yongjie and i thought we'll need help apart frm the hard-t-understand textbook we have.got the o'level guide at coronation after school.

and i've maxed my cham and math and i think IH ace.suddenly ngsh became super stingy and i ended up with 8 for physics ace, which stinks considering the powrer-pack ppt i did with fangbot and sam.maybe its because there's so many ppl exchanging ace and plagarising.blah!

chinese ace is hilarious.got 12 after she took 2 away.actually bra and eujin and i did a ppt to present.last minute so naturally its bad.we managed to get her t give us her teacher resource ppt yesterday.plan was to edit her ppt and use it t present.sounds good?then the screw ups came in.which was hilarious. it wa like 11 plus yesterday and bra was optimistic.he was hey boxian you are doing the ppt right?you ARE RIGHT?ARE RIGHT.

i said no,cant do cuz eujin not online

gg liao.no remake. *gg's good game.means lose/die blah!

i said maybe ej not online cuz he's secretly doing for us.optimisitic.

so this morning teyc asked us to present - we knew we didnt do.we tried to ask her let us use her ppt , she said no and got pissed.sensed the danger we went up.realised no one brought the ppt.good game bra tried to eff around to kill time by opening a irrelevant thumdrive with irrelevant contents.

minus 2 ace for screw up.

anyway yongjie and i came to a collective conclusion that our lives in hc revolves around mugging, trainings, screwups, being lame/guailan and maybe copying of assignments. i thought it'll be better memories to look back upon compared to looking back upon memories of your sec school life being a mugf***.

seriously, i think sec school life memories will stay with me for a longlong time.and the guailan things we usually do actually builds character.

2005-09-22T15:07:00.000+08:00

long week. ok CIP first.we had cip in the range on saturday. help the visually disabled. so they came and we helped them shoot balloons in the range. yeah sounds lame, but they really cherished the visit and it meant a lot to them. you can really hear it in their voice.

so a few people and i went t the clock tower to show them to the range.there were lke about 20 of them, with only 1 coodinator. they're not totally blind so most of them could walk without aid.a few, about 4 needed help. i helped one of them down to the range, and he was talking to me. he asked where he was, who i was and what was my name. then it suddenly sruck me 'helpless' they were. when we were going down the stairs, he held me real tight. he said, you must hold me if not i'll fall. and i watched his struggle with every step, i felt a pang of symphaty for him. i could almost feel the helplessness behind his grip. imagine if you cant see, you dunno where you are and all you have for support is a stranger's hand, your only link to the world of sight. how would you feel?

and the worst thing was that some people just stone around didnt bother to help.rather they didnt dare to help just because maybe their appearances were slightly abnormal.

in the range i spoke to a few of them. i realised that as mr tan mentioned, they may be visually disabled but they were emotionally rich people. some of them had stories and experiences to share. they were not the least bit emotionally disabled. - seeing their smiles was actually was v fufilling and meaningful.the activity has made me realise how fortunate i am, to be blessed with sight.

aye sometimes somethings in life can be real sad.

right sat chuanxin and i went esplanade t watch separation 40.was a compulsary play.before that we met at city hall and we sorta got lost and ended up at suntec.from there we took a cab with 2 bucks surcharge to esplanade.the show was ok, couldnt get some of the themes behind it thought. D:

after that we just wondered around to spore river and clarkequay. den fullerton hotel.which was damn class.uhh went there last year during cip too to slack. den i went home and feel asleep on the mrt.reached home at 12plus hahahha.

oh im not shooting sunday's monthly shoot.coach said.anyway my thumb hurts so just as well.yeah-

2005-09-20T13:34:00.000+08:00

fake smile, real tears.

2005-09-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

stress.this week is totally no life - no training (major no life man!) and everyday is go home on ocmputer and do ace. im paying serious attention in classes now so i can afford not to revise when i go home. erm, tho i dont really do that if i stone in class.

Since Bruce Springsteen, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that shes uncool
'Cause she's still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Woo Hoo Hooooo!
Woo Hoo Hooooo!

listening to loud and crazy songs. but no angst pls-

songs that make you high.improves productivity HAHA.im tunring into a workaholic!

i think i numb already.and getting exhilerated.lke high.for no reason HAHA. - confrim ids the stress.last 3 days is nothing but sit at computer do ace. ace takes up 15% of final year. and the eoy draws near. in 4 weeks.

ive been sleeping at 1plus.strangely enough, i feel more energetic. and i dont feel tired.only at around 8am - 9am im drowsy in class.hmm maybe lesser sleep is good.

ace.its almost a crazy frenzy if exchanging of ace projects. i add your name for this project, you add mine for yours. ace is seriously lke currency - exchange rate for ace for dif subjects ect. quite amusing.hc people can seriously adapt. tho ace is supposed to be self initiated learning.

ive pushed most of my ace to max already.still seriously lacking for languages. haha this week i found out that i am VERY productive under stress. come to think of it, i enhoy owrking under stress. sorta pushes me really far.its almost exciting yea? o.0 yeah baby let the pressure build up. shit maybe im going crazy.

shooting under stress? not- a little stress is good but this kind of stress will kill you.for shooting.speaking about shooting i havent trained since sunday.and its painful.training rocks - ! wil go on sat.friday got CIP at school range.i think i havent done cip this year.

time to work under stress.bye--

2005-09-08T11:44:00.000+08:00

changed the blog navigation a bit.last time couldnt really see the picture.

ok right thanks sharon for helping out.buy u lunch next time mmh-

exams coming stress stress.im doing ace like crazy now, hope to max the 15% ace weightage.and considering that my bio teacher is gohyy, gotta work more to get bio ace.
went back to sch today for chem lessons.chew's going on ns just before our exams.like leave us to die- so chem is no teacher to guide.gahh- aiya i should be studying.

changed my tagboard, the old one look weird with the new look.i combined the tags with the links cuz tagB looks really lonely on his own in the big space.haha yeah tag the links! but bigB's slightly lonely now too cuz got no tags. D:

2005-09-06T11:04:00.000+08:00

been not myself lately, blabbering and blabbering my head off like some idiot huh.yeah the feeling's pretty much gone, godknows when it'll be back again.guess i just put it away, forced it down? gave myself a hand and pulled me out of the dark waters.kicked myself to get going, hurts, but hey life isnt smooth sailing.haha-

got my report card for term3 haha got improvement msg 3.4. seems lke ive got 11 ace for integrated humans. dunno how i did it too.bio ace there too, worked into the night for those.yeah basically its about there,

training's been high and low.nothing much to say too.safra's a bit ulu now too.ohyeah, ortus night in school.was generally boring, worse then last year.the highlight was 3k's performance, totally lame - hc style!needless to say, they took best performance prize.uh eujin won a thumbdrive because of baised emcees, gave it to me. D: den stayed in sch for lke 12hours to watch lotr extended.was lke some movie camp, and some people slept thru the whole thing, like, might as well go home?i slept a bit.watched lotr a few times b4, but still quite exciting.haha hardcore fan.

changj stole someone's chips.sec1's HAHA.

the school's damn dark at night.during intervals looking at the campus, suddenly feel like playing war games.(those real-life ones) then i missed ar camp.war games so damn fun!whoo!

exams start 10 oct.like how soon?!?

2005-08-31T15:27:00.000+08:00

saw her and realised for the 100th time that her eyes are beautiful~ so whats new

hate and love your smile.and those eyes that shine.
whats with the hint of melachony that surrounds you?the sadness in your smile.dont u know i nv want to see you sad, breaks my heart. whats with the defences you've built, the walls around you.
do i really know you?

mayeb you're just a dream.
maybe i dont really like you.
maybe its not you-but who then

cant seem to talk to you for long, cant take the pain that grows .
dont look into my eyes, they'll betray my secret.cant let you know, cant let you see what inside,
stole glances at you.watched your back as you walked away,
you just seem so perfect in everything you do,

i seriously think i need to take the life out of my eyes, they say too mch.
freeze my heart so i wont hurt.cant feel,
water my blood, dilute it, make me less human.
anything,

dont lock my soul in you.set me free pls
stop the tears running down my face, they stain-
whats with the clear sky,
took the stars with you, they'll nv shine for me again.

tried to ignore you, like you werent there?
is it too obvious, they way i look away whn you caught me lookin,
the way i tried to pretend i was really fine when you said hi - does they way i aviod you seem almost unfriendly?

ive been acting so strange,

but u'll nv be mine,
i know it.i feel it in my bones.why is it so painful,
im so cold inside.
i think im incomplete without you.the tears are coming they're back,,, hush, run,run away .they'll nv find me where i am now-

2005-08-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

"Lost Without You"
perfromed by Darren Hayes
written by Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
I must say, a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
'Cause I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers
Never giving in
But baby I was wrong
I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

And if we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended it with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is
Im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues?
Baby i'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You know that you're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my bed's so cold at night
I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

If we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
And all I know is
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

If I could only hold you now
Make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face

Oh
All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side

If we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

this feeling sucks cant take it anymore.but i'll swear this song is true.still, i guess you'll never know.but i'll never say.tried to look for you flaws but cant see them.guess the only thing i can make myself hate about you is that you'll nv know,

2005-08-24T13:38:00.000+08:00

yay training was good today-haha found the good actions and the gun didnt drift right/down-right.whooo!haha and i used back r10 today.cuz lazy to bend down to guncase and take rws r10 match.haha den i rmb that since i used rws r10 match my training not so up to standard.

good finally remembered how it felt lke for the gun not to drift.i have the feeling/actions stuck in my head,imprinted.wont forget them.today when i got the actions and feeling right, i did everything very slowly,my mind straining to rmb everything.yeah basically ids there, just need to fine-tune abit.

D: sian.next week still got bio test dunno where to study from.

2005-08-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

went training today.was seriously bad.the rifle kept moving right and downwards right.yeah this problem's wth me for quite long; surfacing once in a while.usually when i shoot bad is mainly cuz of this and some other problem.cant really remember maybe its just off-form.

when i shot well - above 580 - the drifting problem was almost not there or not there at all.hmm how was it lke then, its been long cant rmb.been long, so long..i can hardly see the sun.lets hope i find my way, out of the dark clouds, out of the myriad of confusion - into the light.

man i should have kept shooting diary.shit gotta do smt about the problem..i tried moving left elbow arnd but once its off the position it gets uncomfortable..played with butt piece .lets hope coach comes back soon.

i think i just got some inspiration..maybe i'll go write something yeah?

2005-08-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

this term tests quite ok.start to meng liao thats why.in fact, ids really funny, i seemed to train a bit less this term but because its more 'quality' so feel sorta more fulfilled.the feeling lke ive been training a lot alot.

training is ok.standard is about there, but no significant improvement.i know this shldnt really bother me, but thing is i get bothered by it.bothered by the fact that ther's no significant improvement.then such thoughts inevitedbly lead to score counting.in fact if not for junyang who reminded me not to shoot too many singles today i would have probably continued.

i know i shouldnt think along the line of improvement which leads to score counting.thats quite stupid.cant help it MUST snap out of it.AaaaAhHhh!!

2005-08-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

IM BaCK!!im still alive bio and tests and stress cant kill me.but it killed you HAHA YOU'RE DEAD. -haha you're dead is also a nice greenday song. - shit, im going crazy.

sosc.i shot 581 last series 97.came in 9th, with kasminjian being 8th with 581, last series 99.i didnt make it to the finals.aye to cut long story short, everyone remained same position except morgan, who dropped from 1st to 8th. boxuan went up from 6th to 5th.oh commonwealth cham Narang Gangang came out forth. -the rest lazy to type

went training for the first time yesterdat since sunday.well the week was busy rushing for ace submissions, which incidentally take up 15% of overall.and studying for tests also.uhh and yesterday 1 of the work sorta got screwed cant mail it out by 12mindnight.

shoooting!ive been offered a place in prone and air rifle nyt.for rifle nyt, if i dont join then cant go seasa.applies to boxuan, kelvin and the ri people.man this stinks- always must have this sorta politics, i mean why cant be just shoot and let everything flow properly - without people coming in to do somehing interesting. we're just sorta lke caught in the cross fire.

well latest news is that my teacher in charge wants us to join nyt. i think i'll go train laters-

2005-08-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

2005-08-06T04:13:00.000+08:00

aRggHh.just got back from air rifle club chalet.was quite fun la just that i hadnt have my breakfast yet.theres still bbq at coach's place for dunno wad occasion.still got lots of stuffs to do.man im going crazy.

haha shall blog abt sosc some other time.mmmh its time for lunch,

2005-08-03T13:26:00.000+08:00

HAHA whEeeE!dman high now!dunno why also tmr Spore Open Shooting Cships pon diao Geog test haha tho i regret taking geog over lit but i can positively pon the test tmr.den chanml give me full marks.yay WhOoOoooooO!.

siao la.lets get down to business.uh after the poem i wrote in the previous entry ppl may think im going mad.haha ids NoT, i just got the inspiration to write something.and yeah coupled with other factors which are personal. :D haha i seem to get my inspiration on rainy days.or when im feeling stone and dreamy D: .and when im traveling. it like the scenery's flying by, like the world's flying pass you.hmm now thats sweet.

right.tmr still got gala dinner.uhh i think dress code is dumb casual not sure.dumb casual wear wad ph wears confirm pass one.

ok bye.anti-climax.

2005-07-27T12:55:00.000+08:00

Rewound.

Stabbed by the hand of whom I love,
Tears from the eyes that speak,
Gentle caresses from the velvet touch I yearn,
Sunshine in the smile that captivates,
Cuts from the heart that bleeds another,
Words that tear asunder,
Embraces meant for forever,
A true love never lies.

Anger, hatred and pain drowns,
Cries that were never heard.
Moonlight that shines dark on us,
It frowns upon a broken heart,
And foolish games played,
But a true love never lies.

And the moon falls behind thin clouds,
And sunlight appears;
A dagger is otherwise sheathed,
And sad, hurtful words have died on lips.
No longer do we touch;
And fleeting coldness of something dear removed,
Replaced quick with hollow, empty warmth.
Tears that ran dry dried are back again; but no they won't fall-
Just balancing on eyelid at the loss of something not quite defined.
And hearts, perhaps are mended.

No, none but perhaps of this happened,
Lifted like ink from canvas,
The hurtful river of love had never flowed;
Lost in the future as we fall backwards,
Tumbling right through the sun,
Right into the dawn.

When I first saw you.

Rewound.

2005-07-25T09:22:00.000+08:00

damn penghui stinks.stink is an understatement.

he was shooting next to me for the SECOND TIME since april.how unlucky is that.im just super pissed off with him.for starters hes really distracting.last time he would say 'shit' 'omg' and a colorful assortments of comments just to let those shooting next to him (kelvin and i) know that hes shooting real bad.he'll play with his trigger to make the horrible cricket sound, hum and drum his fingers against the table.in short, he's trying to be a REAL MORON.

gahhh.im just damn pissed.dont come near me. D:and today he knocked into my chair twice.the chair hit me and i shot 2 8s.and oh made his usual noise which effectively prevented me from shooting properly.i mean, how thick is that.junyang scolded his just before monthly shoot.everyone just seems to dislike him.man doesnt it get into his thick neanderthal skull that hes not exactly mr popular so he should really try to stop pissing others off.

i was really angry during the shoot.but i couldnt control myself.fell into the endless pit.let anger got the better of me i couldnt think straight.ended up with 567 for a score.now the school's probably thinking that im super inconsistent.sounds exciting.

april i shot 582.may 568 thanks to him.june 585.july 567 thanks to father christmas from RI.

k but i admit it was poor mental control on my part to be affected by him.

im still pissed off.

2005-07-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

haha nationals today.yay i love nationals the feeling and excitement in the air.taste it.it rocks.

right frst thanks sara and eleanor for the encouragement there on my tag.haha yeah raa burn brighter than before i will!haha falls into place with the blog template - burned by boxian. x) AND hc shooting club catch phrase fear the flame.haha and my starsign's element.whooo!

yeah nationals.hwachong reaped good results today

C` Boys - Gold, Daniel Lee Indi Gold with 579
B` Boys - Silver
A` girls - Gold, Vanessa Individual Gold with 392, equalising Sara's record.
A` boys - Gold, Melvin Tan Individual Gold with 594, new record & Jun Hong Individual Silver with 584
A` Girls Pistol - Bronze, Ying Xian Individual Silver

aye we could have made a grandslam of the air rifle titles but b boys gold went to RI who won us by 6 points.what a waste.wll for CBoys, they really did a great job.well done there XiangQuan, Daniel, Zong Ning and Gabriel.they were all really unitied right from the start, and Daniel shot very well for his age and considering it was the nations.they really did what we could not last year, getting back the C Division challege trophy.and to daniel for his mean feat, u rock man tho u quite kiam pump smtimes haha.

bboys.we lost to the same ppl this year.Jun Yang shot 586, Li Qian 583, and Johnathan 564.it was a good fight, and they emerged the better team.well there's still next year, so watchout then!haha.

bboys.the entire selection process was a new experience and learning point.and yeah watching frm the sides and wondering whats it going to be in an hour after the comp was fresh too.the sadness i felt at being reserve was new - sure ive been sad before becasue of shooting, but this time it was disappointment that i didnt get a chance to play a more significant role in the nationals.it was a new type of disappointment.

yeah but i think the experience was gd.the entire thing.gave may things more perspective, more angles and shed light into areas.shaded some too.i think i'll look back and smile, maybe those types of smile that you'll have thinking of something bittersweet.yeah but i wont want to repeat it again. :D

A boys and girls broke RJ's 3 year streak.yeah.haha practically the adiv team is made up of national team shooters!haha and the press came today to interview the Adiv.

well after the whole thing we went to coffee shop to eat.last yr was swensens haha.den went back safra to stone and play.i went back into the range.it was empty lke totally with only 3 adult shooters.went talk to coach and she suggested that i train so i went home for dinner first.she said i wont come back.but i did!haha proved her wrong.jingna was there then kenneth came and train at 830.

coach taught me a new technique.need to really train it tho ids very mental and abstract.and i think ive got spore shooting open soon in a week or two.heard that overseas shooters would be competting whoo.

zZzZ suddenly tired now.haha feel happy tho.hwachong won many titles today haha!great nationals great start to the combined air rifle clubs of both the high school side and college side.go hwachong shooting club!

2005-07-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

aye today is sad.i was reserve and the reason was tt ronald is more prepared for tues than me.and i think thats a fair decision.ronald has more competition experience than me and after all ids his last yr in high school.and he has shoot very well before. i think based on all those, he's the better pick for 3rd shooter.

they said it was in a way a sacrifice on my part.maybe they exaggerated.i dunno.

the school made a fair decision and i respect their decision.no i didnt proved to be uncooperative whn i got the news.and no i didnt feel real bad or sad losing to ronald.just sad that i couldnt do a part for the school by shooting in the finals.disappointed that i didnt proved myself well.不争气。

well there's really no bad blood between any of us.still close friends and teammates just as it was before the entire process.we're still a team.tho in the morning it was not very pretty that we had to lay out the scores and look at them and then uncover weaknesses, i do not feel it had affected the team spirit or anything.at least for me. theres really no dif in the way i take them before and after the selections.still the same ppl.same buddies.

same cool ronald.same stoned kelvin.same guai-lan boxuan.and same passionate me.

mr low spoke to me after that.told me that he appreciated what i had done.he admired my response to the situation.well personally i felt that the sch had made their choice which is best for the team, and i feel glad at that.which was why i didnt gave color or eff-face to low.because i trusted and had sincere faith in their decision.i was genuinely glad for the team.for hwachong.because that's seriously where my heart laid.if this was the best decision for hwachong, so be it.

mr low said that the reason why they too so heck long to decide was that cuz it was hard to come to a decision.and that the entire thing dragged cuz it was simply too difficult to arrive at a conclusion.first time in hwachong arc history tt the reserve was so close to 3rd shooter.

well he said i shld be honoured.

and the usual stuff.not to give up and stuff lke that.frankly i nv did seriously considered dropping shooting.sure i think i dare said i faced with much much more obstacles in my shooting journey than other normal shooters.but giving up just aint right.

well but i think what i put in, all that i had given, my sacrifices, it'll all come back one day.its just a really big circle.today's sacrifice would form tomorrow's rewards.all the obstacles in my path would make me stronger.not getting to shoot today might prove to be with its lessons that i can learn.strength that it gives for me to push on later.well it i think it'll be fine.

well this whole thing has served as a good learning process.yeah and it'll make me stronger.

stronger.

thats what i am.we are.and on tuesday we'll see.

2005-07-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

this whole thing sucks.we were having selections for B-div until today morning.and now who's reserve is still unknown.i just think that management sucks big time.hello i think we need to have some time to prep for the finals.ids not just anyhow whack can take gold.

right i think they'll still be selecting on the competition day just before the shoot at the rate we're going.AND ALL MY TRAINING ARE MOSTLY SPENT ON SHOOTING SELECTIONS.SO WADEVA HAPPEND TO TRAINING ACTION AND OTHER STUFF?today is saturday.means only tmr is left for proper training.and whoever's selected might just freak out on tuesday.

if they keep playing us with so many damn selections tests wont it negatively affect tues performance?wtf if u just want me to be reserve den so be it, at least i dont ahve to WASTE my trainings on meaningless stuff.selections can be tiring cuz you have to push for the scores, keep doing that before finals and see what happens.2 training days before finals and we cant get to practice but instead spend energy doing selections one after another.

hello thats not smart.

dunno how coach views this matter.she told me to check up monthly shoot scores until june and send to her and teacheric.damn thats totally lke fighting it out and making everything clear.but looks like it has to be done at the rate ids ok.ok go ahead and drag the matter lets see what happens to team spirit in the end.

no decision until now.

im not anxious to have them decide.ids just that the decicion should have been made amybe a week ago.not drag till now.a week is just enough for mental and skill preperation.just enough for the bulding up the skills and basic actions.but the week was spent in energywasting selections.pushing for scores THAT MIGHT NOT EVEN BE THERE ON TUES.whoever is selected will definately be burnt out by tues.

damn and i cant stand some ppl.they are just so arrogant with the im-the-man mindset.i dont think the world owes you a big eff.damn.

im just letting off steam sorry if i offended anyone.

2005-07-14T13:42:00.000+08:00

damn.my training hasnt been up to standard.since tuesday.sunday was ok managed to recover on the same day.but havent been good.actions are not there.it lke really off form.just lke that.ids unnerving.

i wont say im scared.i dun really get scared abt shooting.its just lke this bad feeling, lke a terrible itch against your mind, settling in the foreground.itch waiting against your skin.and it gnaws frm the inside and makes u feel bad.and angry.well but not scared.not that im arrogant or smt but ids just that i know i can recover, just that not as quick as expected.yeah that sucks.of course if take too long to recover or re-hit form is as bad a problem, but i feeling scared sounds quite extreme to me.

sometimes i feel that there's smt inside us.its just there, an unwavering presence waiting.just waiting.its patient, maybe waiting for you to let it surface and rear its ugly head at you.its just how well you keep it down, control it.or maybe how well you put it away, even further into the back of your mind.no but i think it wont ever leave.

i think that thing is weakness.mental and on tecnique part.ids lke a flaw in your skills.in your set of shooting skills.your shooting skills cant be perfect, so it just manifests itself it what you're weakest at, say maybe consitency in actions.well it just feeds on your weakness.simple.and whn it surfaces it sucks.

so i guess ids how well you keep it down or improve on what you're weak at.the lesser your weaknesses the less it'll surface.and you'll be a pretty happy person.lke say the olympic champ.yeah the thing in him shld be pretty much deprived on doing its thing.

:) i feel better now.haha yeah.ignite the flame!

2005-07-07T14:28:00.000+08:00

busy.just had bio test today i spent fri-weds mugging for it so i felt the paper was quite ok.still life has been really busy and hectic with lots of stuff coming in.top on the list is nationals and schoolwork.and yeah its really such a shame that i dont have time to follow the 117 ioc session
in singapore.man that really sucks.

ioc in spore that's such a big thing.event.imagine the international olympic council comes to the tiny island to chose host country for the olympic games 2012.montage and raffles place, opening ceremony at esplanade yesterday and today's voting at esplanade too i think.and i missed them all, didnt even catch it on tv!not even those mini docu that cna shows.damn.

kk set goals.shall visit rp to look arnd.and try to watch retelecasts of anything ioc.k done completed best things to do.

ok london got it.didt see their campaign adds tho.heard that london's was good.new york was dropped, den it was down to london and paris.but london won by 4 votes paris quote sad leh 3rd time trying liao their ppl also quite piah.also dunno why london wins i felt that both country can do a gd job of hosting the games.

gah i want the ioc tshirt damn nice.wanted to ask lucky junhong who got to go for opening ceremony to kope for me but forgot.uhh check his blog for details on the opening C.

k went safra today shot quite ok.i realised that shooting singles (as in comp style) shouldnt use pellet box lest u get too bothered by the score cuz wont know how much you've shot.i try not to use if i can haha all the pros dun use pelletB for their comps! may consider dropping pelletB soon dunno.

ah sch finally got bucks to but 4 new p700 wooden stock.wood is sick but better than nothing for noob p700 fans lke sec2s.not very noob but moderately ok digressing.teomh say i dun have. D: not too bothered cuz i shot wel with my trusty 603 which is really a classic.and i sorta screwd the times whn i used ronald's p700. lol maybe nv add weights ah toemh say nxt year buy alu stock will give me. D:

nationals in 13 days - bring it on.right HERE.right NOW.you watchout. D:

2005-07-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

right a post before i mug bio to tie up loose ends.right many things have happened ths week.some i'll blog about, some maybe next times.

monthly shoot first.june monthly shoot i got 585, my personal best.my series were 99 99 94 97 98 98.yeah didnt do well for 3rd series.came in 2nd just before melvin tan who shot 590.yeah started the compeition feeling strong, but i think something went wrong at 3rd series.aybe its the pressure of shooting continuous 10s.yeah but im sure 3rd series mental part is wrong.technique was there all the way.

nationals prelims.im reserve, and as expected bdiv and cdiv bagged the team gold and all individual placings except XiangQuan.he lost the cdiv indi 3rd to fuhua.first nationals cant blame him.

somethings i wont blog about.

-right.i feel it snowballing, its growing.the heat's rising, and the nationals and people have just fueled it.everything's standing still, alls in a blur.you're there but you're not.i see and hear you but then i dont.and it's in your eyes.madness.fear.a flicker of doubt of yourself.

and everything is happening at the right moment, all is falling into place.its working up into a sprint, an unstopppable inferno is blazing. scorching.

take it down, its the spirit of hwachong. -fear the flame.

2005-07-01T14:42:00.000+08:00

"Flying Without Wings"
performed by Westlife
composed by Steve Mac

Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the words of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

So, impossible as it may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cos who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Well, for me it's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
At any given time or place

It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cos you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

And you're the place my life begins and you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring I'm flying without wings

this is my life.

2005-06-25T14:16:00.000+08:00

got back from fruitful training, tho it wasnt very long as i had my gun serviced today by uncle tan.checked velocity, all was normal. : D

sorta tried to find back the inner feeling and action of good shot.lke whn i shoot well.so i had some minor adjustment in actions and did more of mental training today, esp on th shot itself.that one and only shot.

well today`s groups was well shot, no problem with shoulderpiece.did cheekaction very well, almost perfect guess cuz i adjusted the cheepiece to optimal height.target was abit blurred today, but didnt really matter.trigger good. : D trigger rythm was fine today, no weird cases or late triggering leading to loss of window period.groups generally small, cept for 1 or 2 strays lke 9.3s.

ah singles got better.didnt count score shot 28 cards coach said not bad.i feel that its more meaning for not to count, as even if u do really well it still boils down to competition performance.actions and mental control.well first series got close to shooting 100 but sorta got tensed and shot 2 9s.

yeah today was more of mental training which i found to be useful.haha this entry slightly technical gues only shooters will know.

2005-06-19T03:19:00.000+08:00

nationals prelim in 12 days.didnt know it'll come so fast.i thought all the talk and excitement in safra was just the usual overly-enthued hype.haha i have a bad track of time and events and deadlines.guess tt's why im not gd at meeting deadlines.

'the days are just packed' - Calvin and his stuffed tiger Hobbes.

my training is getting mroe fruitful. coach gu told me each training is a new experience, dont have to bother about finding that perfect action or feeling - just experiment and try out how you respond to each action.so the ast few trainings have really been focused on feeling.fixed actions are at the back of my mind now.

there's monthly shoot next sunday means i'll have to start into competition mode soon.yeah later training at 320 later.i'll try to focus on actions then, run thru actions in my mind.pre comp training mode.still will shoot more groups about 10 singles.maybe nearer to the competition i'll do more singles for the comp. feeling.

of course gd actions is the most important.since the 2 badly-shot competitions after my 582 i have been searching for that form.which isnt totally right.you'll nv find it if u look too hard.so recently ive let go.as mentioned, coach gu told me to try new experiences.so far it's very helpful.now i know whch actions suit me and which dont.and its gna help in comp if suddenly everything explodes in a mess n i need to start from the basics t build a set of actions for the comp.

and hanwen used my gun.

told him not to use but no, he used it and adjusted the stuffs and stuck a sick looking card at the rear sight.didnt take it off, didnt change back sighting and adjustments.pon training den come n screwmy gun. grr.

haha ironic isnt it.the days are just packed whn ids the holidays.haha too much thing to do.

2005-06-11T01:29:00.000+08:00

ok.if i dont update i'll get beaten up on the streets.

right uhh prone monthly shoot on the 4 June, Saturday has certainly beeen a fruitful competition for Eleanor.despite not having trained for a month, she managed to pull off a 578 out of a full score of 600 for the shoot.

haha talking to some funny korean now.met on bnet ttho ids not a place to really socialise.

2005-06-10T13:47:00.000+08:00

ok a quick one so eme has smt t read if she gets bored.

uhhh.went safra today didnt book but got a lane.unfruitful training tho haha jacket lost.shall train on sunday again.

wahh mental block....

sorry la eme nth much to read!haha no inspiration for poems too. :))))

2005-06-04T10:57:00.000+08:00

nus shoot today.shot 564 haha.this was seriously the hardest competition ive been in so far.every shot was painstaking, i felt so heavy.everything seemed to be weighted and hard to do.actions.mental control.first series i shot 91, due to my nervousness.2nd series 98 things got better.calmed down and actions came out better.haha put dwn gun many times yeah it changed many 9s to 10s ya.

well team 1st was hci college.2nd hci high school.3rd ri. first 2 indididual shooters were frm ri.but they still lost yeah team just didnt make it cuz jon and mor shot for safra.

hmm theres still prone ms on sunday. .__.

2005-06-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

before anything else.

Before the stars start to fade,
I'll tell you I love you.

Lets count the stars dear,
Oh wouldn't it be fun.

But before I start to dream
Of all the what-ifs and could-bes,
I'll tell you that I like you
That you send me on a rollercoaster ride of emotions each time I see you.

my world spirals and spins
out of control
and i see nothing but you.

And before you leave
On that ship to that place faraway ,
I'll tell you that I like you
And pray that you'll stay.

its you.

2005-06-01T08:34:00.000+08:00

damn it.guessed i woke up on the wrong side of bed today.k my beds beside the wall hard to wake up on the wrong side.but i did.not literally ok fine wadeva.

obviously i didnt get enough sleep, at least not enough to prevent the pounding headache.woke up and stoned at bit den i went to safra to stone more.lots of ppl in the morning.no more peace.no more quiet training.at least till the mayhem of competition is over or weird ulu ppl decide not to spam safra anymore.

k nus this friday.left tmr and thu to train.tmr fully bk thu cannot train whch means tt either train in running targets range or against wall.i have a feeling that even the walls will be taken up so no point.oh and prone monthly this sunday yitian`s ponning but eleanors enthu.i think i'll trn on sat and shoot on sundy.

phone got stolen den leong say security cam off cannot trace.leong is best.askd him if he saw it he keep saying nv see den pius told me he showed leong the fone b4 it went misingi think he jus dun wanna be involved la scared smt will happen t him.how thick.bet gollum stole it.(haha gollum!ask me if u dun noe wad it means)

luckil ids free phone.

wah today`s entry very cynical.tmr's will be brighter.brighter day lol weather report style.

2005-05-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

changed my skin!yay ids designed by sara haha looks really good thanks once agn raa!right Ar monthly today got 568.gahh.lots of reasons but no excuses.no excuses gd enuf for screwing up.shld have been stronger.shld have been better.shld have been wiser.

there was a seriously irritating bugger frm ri behind me.dun wna talk abt it.am getting tired.nus this week.sunday smallbore monthly.too little butter over bread.yeah.mayb i shld blog more tmr ya........

zZZzZ.

2005-05-26T12:19:00.000+08:00

whoo physics test tmr.went for sch training today only got sec1s and me.later jiehao come and we talked a lot.tok to mr tan learnt some intersting things.haha feels weird to have to call sara coach was chatting with her a moment den i had t say clubstandclubbow-gdafternooncoachsara.k den go back to chatting.

and she didnt noe she was standing in today haha happend to sms her while she was trn den got a shock.coach didnt inform her .__.

went safra after that quite late so trained for 1 hour plus.was quite ok, seemd to let my concentration wander to the card.yeah coach says no point looking at the card u cant control it.control the things that u can.like yourself.haha must be more focused.but grping quite gd managed to get back the right feeling.

sometimes ids just really hard to control oneself, not in shooting but in many things too.

and you know why.

2005-05-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

just got back from training.we had consortium assemble today extremely slack.yj and fk were launching the online mag.uhh funny presentation den suddenly got my name.totally manipulating the article which i wrote hahaah but quite funny nvm.

hahah jewel rocks!whee love jewel campaign.

coach just said tt tmr`s school training in hci sara will be going as coach.haa it feels weird having another shooter to b there t supervise and fill in as assistant coach.haha sara!ahh but im probabaly gng safra.well.

2005-05-24T13:01:00.000+08:00

k havent updated in a long time.more than a week been to lazy to do so.noticed many people changing their blog skins guess thats the in-thing now.should really change mine too. (haha cx!)

been listening to jewel songs lately.they're very unique... focals and guitar.and the lyrics are really meaningful.no blabering abt love and the sorts but yeah simple.

got physics test on thursday.for term 3`s grades.been trying to study for it.and there's training everyday from tmr.AR monthly`s on sunday, following sunday is prone.haha i sense your urgency eleanor!and NUS shoot dunno when.been trying to grab the right feeling during my trainings.turned out pretty well - foucs on action as jh said.its not easy tho haha..

hmm havent touched the prone rifle since last monthlyshoot.seems that everyone always mengs prone when the shoot is coming.chao muggers. (x