it's the sad songs over and over again. it's the screw ups over and over again. it's the same shit over and over again. too much deja vu, too much of a (bad) tune stuck in the head. i felt quite disillusioned about shooting today.the quality of my training is one thing, and the situation in another. i don't feel very passionate about training recently, like there's not much of a drive. i tried to imagine myself having shot maybe 59+ last monthly shoot, and asked myself if it would mean that i was more passionate about training. but it wasnt so, wasn't that way. and this is quite a big difference as compared to maybe one or two years ago, when i was very enthusiastic about everything.damn, there are somethings i cant say here now, with al the shit going around.
the shit.we don't seem to get enough of it.one thing after another, a sick cycle.in the shooting scene, granted that there might be some friction between people, a few disagreements here and there.but now it's so mad, the shooters are affected. it sorta repels me from the safra. kills the passion. but main thing is still, within me.gotta sort it out myself. time is running out for me. december hols is the time to go, without the burden of schoolwork.
