feeling very tired and lethargic now. well it was a beautiful day today, it rained :). but dont know why im feeling down now, today mugging was not as fast as i wanted it to be. bio exams's on tuesday but frankly, since friday after math everyone's slacking.wrong wrong, good thing i started this morning.
this sucks. i went training yesterday and it sucked big time.in fact, the last few trainings were not good too.its like a constant deterioration decay thing. true, i train once a week cuz of exams, but i don't think it'll be that bad.
another thing is the moood and atmosphere.the place is so dead, barely anyone goes there.granted a few ntt shooters would be there, but most of the times i went it was always doc. and maybe some safra people.worse thing is everything there is about politics, always this and that, people causing trouble and stuff.after
that thing that happened, its not encouraging to go there any more.explains why the place's dead.the mood is killed, the love's goneaway.i can almost feel my passion for the sport being siphoned away.
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out when i go there, the tension is so strong that you can feel it in the air.everything's so tensed up now, many things going on behind, things you cant see. it used to be a positive shooting atmosphere, one that would possible propel the standard of singapore's shooting to greater heights. but from what it seems like now, its one step forward two steps back thing.
come to think of it, there has been so much trouble. take the seasa thing for instance, i wont say much but a cancelled junior event for air rifle is weird. and the rules that came along with it.
the mood's killed, the passion and love's gone. last time i loved to train, i trained cuz i wanted to. now i actually feel like staying at home to play warcraft rather than going training. last time safra was a place with positive shooting atmosphere, banters and jokes among people. now it's a warzone.
the entire thing makes me sick to the stomach.i think it affects everyone, the times i went there recently most of the people there had this tu-lan look. the stench of death is getting to us.its killing us and the passion.
i totally agree with junhong's post.
