aye today is sad.i was reserve and the reason was tt ronald is more prepared for tues than me.and i think thats a fair decision.ronald has more competition experience than me and after all ids his last yr in high school.and he has shoot very well before. i think based on all those, he's the better pick for 3rd shooter.
they said it was in a way a sacrifice on my part.maybe they exaggerated.i dunno.
the school made a fair decision and i respect their decision.no i didnt proved to be uncooperative whn i got the news.and no i didnt feel real bad or sad losing to ronald.just sad that i couldnt do a part for the school by shooting in the finals.disappointed that i didnt proved myself well.不争气。
well there's really no bad blood between any of us.still close friends and teammates just as it was before the entire process.we're still a team.tho in the morning it was not very pretty that we had to lay out the scores and look at them and then uncover weaknesses, i do not feel it had affected the team spirit or anything.at least for me. theres really no dif in the way i take them before and after the selections.still the same ppl.same buddies.
same cool ronald.same stoned kelvin.same guai-lan boxuan.and same passionate me.
mr low spoke to me after that.told me that he appreciated what i had done.he admired my response to the situation.well personally i felt that the sch had made their choice which is best for the team, and i feel glad at that.which was why i didnt gave color or eff-face to low.because i trusted and had sincere faith in their decision.i was genuinely glad for the team.for hwachong.because that's seriously where my heart laid.if this was the best decision for hwachong, so be it.
mr low said that the reason why they too so heck long to decide was that cuz it was hard to come to a decision.and that the entire thing dragged cuz it was simply too difficult to arrive at a conclusion.first time in hwachong arc history tt the reserve was so close to 3rd shooter.
well he said i shld be honoured.
and the usual stuff.not to give up and stuff lke that.frankly i nv did seriously considered dropping shooting.sure i think i dare said i faced with much much more obstacles in my shooting journey than other normal shooters.but giving up just aint right.
well but i think what i put in, all that i had given, my sacrifices, it'll all come back one day.its just a really big circle.today's sacrifice would form tomorrow's rewards.all the obstacles in my path would make me stronger.not getting to shoot today might prove to be with its lessons that i can learn.strength that it gives for me to push on later.well it i think it'll be fine.
well this whole thing has served as a good learning process.yeah and it'll make me stronger.
stronger.thats what i am.we are.and on tuesday we'll see.
