damn.my training hasnt been up to standard.since tuesday.sunday was ok managed to recover on the same day.but havent been good.actions are not there.it lke really off form.just lke that.ids unnerving.
i wont say im scared.i dun really get scared abt shooting.its just lke this bad feeling, lke a terrible itch against your mind, settling in the foreground.itch waiting against your skin.and it gnaws frm the inside and makes u feel bad.and angry.well but not scared.not that im arrogant or smt but ids just that i know i can recover, just that not as quick as expected.yeah that sucks.of course if take too long to recover or re-hit form is as bad a problem, but i feeling scared sounds quite extreme to me.
sometimes i feel that there's smt inside us.its just there, an unwavering presence waiting.just waiting.its patient, maybe waiting for you to let it surface and rear its ugly head at you.its just how well you keep it down, control it.or maybe how well you put it away, even further into the back of your mind.no but i think it wont ever leave.
i think that thing is weakness.mental and on tecnique part.ids lke a flaw in your skills.in your set of shooting skills.your shooting skills cant be perfect, so it just manifests itself it what you're weakest at, say maybe consitency in actions.well it just feeds on your weakness.simple.and whn it surfaces it sucks.
so i guess ids how well you keep it down or improve on what you're weak at.the lesser your weaknesses the less it'll surface.and you'll be a pretty happy person.lke say the olympic champ.yeah the thing in him shld be pretty much deprived on doing its thing.
:) i feel better now.haha yeah.ignite the flame!
