today was my first shoot at cdan.range was substandard.heard abt it b4, but didnt expect it to be so bad.worse was the poor lighting.... can hardly see the bloody target.even harder to focus on relationship.then there was the fucking brackets.cant even put the card onto the damned thing.dropped 2 cards into over the table n didnt even noe.later jury gave me 2 new ones whn i was taking off jacket shot 2 10s but thats not the point.
crashed to an all time low of 553.i was using a p700 but yet i produced such disappointing results.crash and burn huh
im so confused.i feel that no matter how hard i try i just cant do well.mebbe im just lousy.mebbe ids the emtional strain.
you`re hurting me by just being there.
