another year has passed.the kaleidoscope images, emotions and much more never stops.like a cycle.this year ends, another one starts.dats the way things are.it jsut goes on.and on.a chapter has just passed, a chapter of my life has ended.another one starts, but no doubt the experience will be totally different.
that's life.
year 2005.seagames.sec3.3yrs to the beijing olympics.
dream.
as you turn towards 05 with onli memories left of 04, you cant help but wonder wads in store for you in the new year.more suprises and unexpected stuff?definately.i wont use the goddang expect the unexpected phrase.haha.but yep.suprises.dats the word.im sure 05's gna be full of them.i cant see wads in store for me in 05.i realli cant.the way things work, be it work themselves out or anything, is totally crazy.for gd or for bad.just like this year.sometimes when u find yourself at a bad patch of life, u feel pissed at it all.u feel bad.curse and all.but at the end of the day, at the end of each chapter of your life, your story, u look back on it all and somehow, u smile and marvel at how each day of your life goes.how the story goes.how each paragraph of your amzing story goes.u marvel at perhaps how things turn out for the better.
reflect.
u look on as u see yourself each day, growing and reaching out to others.strangers come into your lives, here and there.and at the end of the day, at the end of a seemingly insignificant sentence of your story, the stranger turn out to be your best friend.your teammate.your benefactor.your rival?your love.soulmate.another one of the characters god introduces into your life.definately for a reason.
the people you love.
a random image tossed your direction, snatches of conversations heard here and there, strings of words by your ear.insignifcant?i dun think so.just like sketches or drawings drawn into the sand by the seabed and washed away the moment the tide comes in.leaves behind a clean bed of sand.a new day has come.draw another picture.touch another life.reach your goals.come close to the climax of your life.to what you have been waiting for.the time of your life.to when and where u feel.to when u realli feel thats what you're born to do.your destiny.study abroad.be a doctor and save lives.anything.but for me?the olympics definately.
the time of your life.
of course not to mention the people around me.my teammates, family members and friends. they are wonderful.supporting me in the things i do.being there for me.clowning around with me.my 2k friends, ppl at safra.most importantly,my family.
without you the story cant go on.
i think each of us have our own destiny.and we have to find it.in fact, i belive life is abt making choices and finding.each day, whether we notice it or not, we make choices.we come to crossroads.crossroads that require our decision.how our lives go, how the story moves on, depends on these choices.
thats choices for me.
finding.on a superficial level we do search for things in every part of our lives.searching for your love.searching for your happiness.anything.on a deeper level, we search for ourselves.we search for love within our hearts to give.we search for our roles to play.not in our lives only, but in the lives of others also.we search for the role we need to assume in the stories of others.yes.it can all be fun.and amusing.but to seach for that is to do so with sincerity and trueness of a heart.not to assume some role for the sake of doing so.and lastly, i think we search for the one true moment we feel we are alive.the one moment we wait for. the time of your life.
and it's like flying without wings.
another year has passed.wrap it up and embrace the new year.memories.memories of past experiences, lessons learnt, people met.live your life to the fullest.you wont regret it.
it's your life story.
happy new year ppl.i love u all.
